Hey purpletanzanite, I’m sorry I took so long to reply. I struggled on what to say.
My strategy on steemit has always been to follow the path of inspiration. If you read through the comments you might get a better understanding that I am about people and communities, and I’m no slouch with networking when I’m feeling in the mood. Of my 977 posts, only 22 are my own posts. The rest are comments, and I’m generally no slouch in my commentary either. People who engage are valuable to me, more than their wallet.
Has this strategy been a good approach?
I think so.
I’ve been fortunate in many ways, but I won’t list them. None of that came easy, and it still isn’t. I put a lot of effort to connect with others. I take a genuine interest in people. I want to write real characters with believable emotions, so that requires I pay attention. All this focus and interest in others often end in disappointment. Especially, when you come to realize when it comes time for real support, it’s rarely the ones you care about or the communities you invest in that take an interest in the things that are important to you. I’ll exclude a few real steemian friends from this though. They know who they are. It’s often the people who don’t need me to do anything for them, or I may not even know who have supported me the most. Real kindness and generosity with no expectations.
I write this with clear awareness that I’m no different to many. I come with expectations and strings. It’s also this that makes me want to withdraw and self reflect on the whys.
My point is not really about the payout, but on this platform they are related. It’s really coming to the knowledge that I’m too hard on myself on a platform that feels largely apathetic to what I create or the care I put into comments. It just seems an ineffectual use of time. I understand it’s not personal because everyone needs to be focused on themselves. That to make a difference on the causes and for the people we care about, we must build our accounts.
I guess I’m trying to be steemy dragon (sorry @ryivhnn , I’m aspiring to be an arsehole ). I’ve always felt my outer shell isn’t hard enough for social media. I’m constantly hurt by the behaviors of others. It’s the small things that add up. That time and time again I overinvest myself and set myself up for a huge fall.
I guess I’ve reached a point where I’m drifting again. Floating along and waiting for the next thing that inspires me. While that happens, it’s time to focus more inwards and if ulogging forces me to refocus the energy on me, then I’m going to try.
I don’t really like this reply, it’s the mother of whiney comments, but I’ll cringe and hit post.