Things are tough. From yesterday to today was hospital and me doing episodes of things, that I did with my mum for 16 days before she passed but this time with my dad.
Words are pretty weak; thoughts can be too; reality is something else.
My dad is calmer now and in the hospital but we will gradually go home on this one. It is tough.
I dislike tests and all. I won't do them for myself. My dad has to and I wait. We wait. Some results came and we will do some more.
He is a sweet man; I love him but this very love-breed is very complicated. Yes love aint feelings; it is dead stronger, for feelings can be weak too and short of love (in its weightiness).
Yes, you can love even where feelings die because you have become about loving, feelings or no feelings.
I love him. I feel everything for him about him; I miss him but I am still not able to love him well/right or is there a right or wrong way to love, if it is love still?
So yes love is beyond feelings because feelings are weak in comparison but when it reall boils down to it, love can fall weak to because life in this system of things is something else.
It is not Mathematics but its all complicated and yes, geeks can solved this because it is not Mathematics and yes, their complicated stuff without solutions in the books.
It is all complicated, till Paradise comes and answers it all.
I wish my dad knew me. I wish he can come to know me, the beautiful son he created. My entire tired being feels this beauty and it is beautiful. I miss him alot. I do want to talk to him andI tell him of the beauty his was core in. He can't see but he has abilities, for just if he hears it, his cute large ears will process it and in his mind's eyes, he will see it.
He wants Phd for me, till date. Even in his world, he calls himself the "prayer warrior for the entire world". We share a dream but in different era(s).
I so love him because every time is see him, I see him but is my love strong enough? "It used to be so powerful" but life takes alot of its toll and suddenly, my love that I feel will move mountains, isn't even moving. Like half human I start to watch as they pumped on her frail frame till she was gone for real and now, I am watching all over again?
No to this one!
No to this one!
This particular man will be back home, his mind back in the right place and I will speak to the man that bore like a son and we will see where we are at and we will share large smiles.
I will tell him of the teardrops SMT, the ever-ongoing bus-stop where will reward every tear.
I will tell of https://ulogs.org and about true celebrity-hood for everyone, once and for all.
I will tell him https://steemgigs.org that will build every noble dream.
Then ofcourse, I will tell him of Surpassing Google, his boy Terry.
Your boy Terry
You can inspire me too by supporting my witness, it is called:
"steemgigs"
to rep everyone.
unedited!!!
It brings tears in my eyes :( Every line you wrote is from your heart and i can feel it, I never Ever read something with this much intention.
I totally agree with you, how much it hurts when you are in the hospital and your father is admitted in the hospital and Nurse cam and she needs blood for tests, it hurts when they dip the needle in the hands or in vain to take our blood :( it hurts it hurts :(
Yes you are our boy terry and our support is with you and your initiative of #ulog and #steemgig.
God bless you, Terry, @surpassinggoogle <3
Nothing is impossible for God to do. All you need do is believe Sir Terry. God will take the pain from off your father.
I pray that the healing hand of God locate him right where he is in Jesus Name. Amen.
I stand with you and say:
You're not frail Terry, whenever it gets bad I try to think of how frail you might be and how hard it is for that feeble you to take in all these, but it always comes back a solid, you're not frail. You're the strongest strength in your weakness. Your tears are now more meaningful than ever, whether of joy or pain, because in its every atom are different significant breeds of hope, faith and believe for the world, I say this because when I feel my strength is failing, I try your words once more, I imagine you in your entirety, and it always brings me home.
Papa will return home with you sound. He will see you like he never has, and you will have that conversation. You will share that smile. And don't worry much, you love him sufficiently, sorry, that's the only way I could measure it.
I love this one Terry, it's more original than the other originals to me. It's Unedited!
Hopefully, he gets back to normal and your wishes come true.
Be strong Terry!
I'd like to share this with you, from Isaiah 41:10:
Hey Terry, listen to Jehovah talk to you in the above expressions.
Terry we love you!
Amen Big Bro, your dad will be back bigger and better. Our best prayers are with you and the family.
Walk on with hopes in our hearts and you'll never walk alone.
I often say to the young people of our church that Love is not just a feeling but a decision, because if it's only a feeling it is subject to change. But when we decide to love no matter what, then it is independent to feeling...We can then love even when we don't feel it. So, better love him @surpassinggoogle even sometimes we don't feel loving our parents...God bless you sir!
God, comfort and relieve those who are troubled in mind and spirit including Terry's dad. Bring them hope, peace and the consolation of a loving community.Lord, in your mercy, hear our prayer. Grant patience and courage to those who need it most especially to the families and friends of those who are ill. Amen.
All my prayers, Terry. I can truly feel you. My sister is living in a mental institution for a decade now and it breaks my heart seeing other people suffer like this. Hugs.
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Oh, sad to hear about your sister @bloghound, yeah it hurts when we see our loved ones in this situation :( yes it really hurts :(
Stay strong terry, you are not alone in this hard time, we all are with you <3
Can I adopt your style of writing? @surpassinggoogle?
hahaha you can but it is almost impossible to because I dont write. I talk
;)
It is so much easier for me to talk rather than write too. My first instinct is always to record a post or book rather than write it. More flows, unplanned during talk.
Easier to edit and choose what's said when writing though. Right now I have a sequel grieving post to my Father's Day one that's done. If I had recorded it via audio, I would have just posted it on DLive and forgotten about it. But it's written. And so raw. And I feel like editing so much of it. ;)
That's why your Saturday Talks are so healing, Sir Terry. Because you talk and allow yourself to be inspired before and while you speak so healing energy can flow and Bless. Thank you for facilitating healing in so many ways while you talk and through your every initiative, be it #untalented, #teardrops, #SteemGigs, #Ulogs/ #Uloggers etc. Thank you and Bless you and may God continue to guide and Bless and use you as a channel for healing on planet Earth. xxx
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yes, I can :p I'm talking about the formatting style of your post :p I think you didn't got me :p
Thank you so much for your beautiful prayer, @bloghound.
This is what I feel so much here after becoming aware of Sir Terry's/ SurpassingGoogle's Saturday Talks and being with everyone there:
Thank you for speaking that in words, in prayer.
My sister was also locked away for years in the mental section of an old people's home even though she only had MS (that was in remission) and was younger than me.
By the time she was 'allowed' to live in the 'normal' section, she had deteriorated so much because she had no one to talk to all those years except the nurses and caregivers and my mother and I when we called every day. She'd lost the heart to walk because there was only a very short corridor to walk and she wasn't allowed outside to feel the warmth of the sun or to see her beloved flowers, etc.
Blessings to you and your sister and your entire family, @bloghound. I will hold her in my heart and in my prayers. xxx
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I join faith with you @Surpassinggoogle and with @Fatherfaith to say:
God's in in control.
God is good all the time, throw all your burden unto him, seek his guidance and surely you can pass all this testing of life. Just keep believing to Jehovah, He wipe your tears Terry...Prayers for your Dad and for you, hoping that all is good at the end.
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Indeed love goes beyond feelings. Often times it's a choice and stand in what you believe is and not ought to be.
I am proud of your strength and your undaunting stance for possibilities. I hope all goes well...
You are a strong man and you always have my heart
Be strong sir terry @surpassinggoogle ...sad to hear about that...i include my prayer...i hope everything will be okey..God Bless🙏
I include my prayer..... Things work for those who believe in God.... God will do a miraculous thing in your life. Stay strong sir Terry@surpassinggoogle
I felt like I was in a maze, beautiful post... Sorry about the tragedies within, life is full of its many challenges but the beautiful thing is we'll always overcome if we don't loose faith.
I am sorry you are going through
such a sad time and due to my illness
and recovery I understand . . . somewhat
because your grief is yours. I can only hope
it will help you do what you do best . . .
help others. Bless you, my friend.
I LOVE YOU and pray for you.
I know he is so proud of you! And we are all proud of you sir Terry!!! We all look up to you. You are our model. God bless you and all your projects. We love you Sir Terry-fic!!! 😊😊😊
Sending you as much love and comfort as i can this evening. The pain and anguish and love in your words about your dad are so powerful. Talk to him anyway. I did with my mum and I'm so glad. All my love Terry, E x
Hello @surpassinggoogle, I am moved to read your publication, you know that you have many people who, although they are not on your side, you know that they accompany you and they want it, we trust that everything will be normalized, faith and patience and GOD will do the rest.
Blessings
Yes life teaches us lot,the grief of losing our dear ones makes us too weak emotionally.I can understand your feeling about your father,hope everthing will be alright,please have faith in God and yourself.You are a very good son ,the world had known about your love and care for your parents.Beside being very good son,you are also a legend of steemit world,God will definitely return you your deserving happiness and beauty in life.I will pray for your beloved fathers recovery,god bless your sweet family dear.
This is so touching and I can feel every bit of pain you're going through but I believe the storm will soon be over. Daddy is just getting healthier, and you need to be strong for him. That's why I continually pray for strength for you brotherly to continue this good work.
@surpassinggoogle, I also join you to say:
No to this one
He will be back home, his mind back in the right place and you will speak to him of all the great things and the great community you are building from untalented to teardrops, ulogs and the steemgigs.
I'm happy to hear that he is calmer now. I pray for his full recovery in Jesus name. Amen
Awwwww it is well with Dad. Don't worry... Jehovah is in control of everything.
I actually just got back from the hospital too... Havent been feeling too well for a while now. All will be well. Just try and be fine.
I feel the kind of love you have for your father, Terry. I wished I had time to tell him how much I love him when he's still here. But, it was all sudden. I never had the chance to take care of him and hug him... :(
I pray that God gives you the strength and more courage you need in times like this. We may not understand His plan at times but, have faith that God is in control. He loves you Terry.
I'm sorry your father passed so quickly, @dynamicshine. Mine did too.
Thank you also for sharing that strengthening Bible verse. I didn't remember this part in particular... it is soooo lovely and comforting....
Sometimes I feel like that... not knowing.... just having enough energy to groan and pray for help.
YES. That's exactly what it feels like in those times. This verse is so perfect.
Thank you again and prayers and Blessings to you and your Dad in heaven. xxx
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My heart rejoices sis @angelacs when ever someone has touched by God's message. This is one of the primary reasons why I'm here in Steemit...to tell how great our God is, His magnificent love for all of us. I loved that verse ever since the first time I read that. It's like telling us that before we even say our prayer, God already has an answer. That verse is really wonderful because there are times I don't know what's wrong with me, I'd just pray about it and then right after that, I'd feel God's comfort and the assurance of His love.
God bless you @angelacs. ☺😇 Thank you also for symphatizing with me about my dad. I appreciated it much. I pray that God will always comfort you especially in times when you need Him the most. 🙏
Wonderful, inspiring work you are doing, @dynamicshine. A Blessing to so many, especially when they're going through tough, trying times. Bless you! xxx
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You could find that Bible verse in Romans chapter 8. I edited it just now. I initially put only the verses but not with chapter. Thanks angel. :)
Wonderful! Thanks so much, @dynamicshine! Now it's also recorded here for anyone who passes along that needs it. xxx
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I pray for your family's health.
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I feel the pains in every of your words and I can tell how much you love your dad. I just want to assure that he will be alright.
Like you've said , he will definitely come home. He'll leave the hospital and he will be fine.
Just stay positive and pray to God.
I am sorry to hear that.. But always believed Mr @surpassinggoogle that everything happens in our life are good from God. Because To God we are belong and to Him will return. Hope that God always blessing you and also your family Mr.Terry
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Nothing but my best regards for you and your dad.
Love comes in many forms, but it sounds like you want dad to be proud of you.
Parents are always proud, they just dont always say it.
Let it be, search in yourself for peace.
Take it easy on yourself mate.
Be strong Sir Terry, I will Pray for your father, everything will be fine for your dad, God Bless .
Your tears have value. The more it flows it heals things. You will be feeling fine sooner or later. You know time heals everything. You dad will be fine. Keep caring him!
Mr. terry, everything will be fine, God always does wonders and grants all the miracles to people who believe in him, your father will return home with good, and you can tell him about all the wonders you have done, and you understand the love so inexplicable that you feel for your father, it is the love of father to son, still trusting in God, everything will be fine, I feel your words, your pain reached my soul ..
Greetings and a lot of strength @surpassingoogle
Terry just believe. You will get passed this. :) There's always hope.
Sad to hear that but be strong it will sort out soon. Things don't remain same all the time. Just patience is needed and it will be a new beginning to the future.
That's sad to hear. Hope all goes well.
I wish him a quick and perfect recovery. Stay strong boss, this too shall pass.
Am so touched, this is really sadening, thank God for strenghtening you all the way.
The important thing about loving is not whether it is right or wrong, it is not whether it is fragile or strong, the most important thing is that you feel it in your heart and express it in time, a love without whoever receives it, it is just a frustrated feeling, surely all your family, friends and relatives are proud of the person who with faith and love, has changed the lives of many people, you are a man with a big heart and you will be able to make love win
Be strong. You dad needs your support more now. Your presence does more than moving the mountain. He will get better. It is well.
Yes, sometimes feelings flew through a cracked in the wall of circumstance and trial, then what is left is love void of feelings, and thats when love speaks for itself.....God will save him and give him more health to enjoy, surpassinggoogle.
I am very sad after reading your post.hopefully you are healthy and family.thanks
yes, sir terry he may not see you now as a beautiful one he created but the fact that he raised you amazing he will feel it. feeling sometimes goes beyond our sight. As he knew that that he made you beautiful makes hime proud and even in the sadness he can still smile because of that love you've given to him. You can surpass this sadness, sir. You're stronger, I may not know you personally but your words as inspiring people will prove how did too much in many lives. Wish you well sir, the teardrops for sadness will be paid by happiness after. Just stay still and hold on. We are all here for you as you are here for us. Take care
Thank you for everything @surpassinggoogle we love you. My prayers are with you and your dad
also.
Whatever happens, hope should never leave you. Be sure of the positive outcome of any situations, cheerful and meaningfully enjoy life. There is such a fair saying: "A person can live without food for several months. Without water for several days. Without air for a few minutes. But without hope, not even a few seconds will live! "
I love this line and truly agree love is beyond feelings, there is more about love that people must understand.
And YES I can say you love your dad, and love him more, let him feel the love from his beautiful son while you still can.
Have faith Terry. May God bless you and your family. I include you on my prayers.
@surpassinggoogle,
I join everyone in faith, for restoration,
I pray that God will restore him back to his feet, every power of dead around him, is terminated, God will heal him, In Jesus Name. Amen
I've inspired you by making you my witness and am knowing more everyday, your dad is going to be very proud of you, trust me on this, you've achieved a lot here than a president of a nation.
Your blog today is very short and can pass as a poem if we'll markdown and spaced, am touched too.
Happy Father's Day to Dad, our prayer is with him and your family.
This is a masterpiece... Thabks for sharing
Wow..... I think you are been more poetic @surpassinggoogle.
It feels good to have a clear picture of what you really feel for your Dad "love"....
Be strong sir.....
One thing I learned in this post is LOVE. (FAMILY OVER EVERYTHING)
GOD bless you sir.....
I pray that you get strong in this type of situations and we are all with you boy terry # be strong and good things will happen soon
Be of good cheer surpassinggoogle. The truth is that being optimistic about everything will do you lot of good in this situation. I promise to be on my kneel today to raise my voice to Jehovah who is ever faithful.
surpassinggoggle stay strong because very soon at the blink of your eyes the situation will receive God's intervention.
Love you.
@surpassinggoogle , all is well with you and your dad. I'm sure that what you are going through will pass. Don't be discouraged. Much love from me to @terry
In loving we should make sure that we let God as the source of our love for His love for us everlasting :) God bless you Sir @surpassinggoogle!