My dear sister, I forgive you and pray that you find within yourself to forgive you as well.
I think Tammy would be more than willing to teach you. I am willing as well. What Tammy did is not magic, but it does require seeing the world from a different perspective. Spiritual instead of physical or fictional. My book is a good start if you really want to explore how she did it. It is the principles that I've been talking about for years. Once you comprehend those principles, then you can stand up against those who engage in violence or bulling, including CPS and other government thugs.
You can start with my book and then I'm open to having private conversations with you. But I would also encourage you to reach out to Tammy. I think she is ready and perhaps willing to help people learn what she learned through the process. Tammy and I have spent a lot of time over the last year or so. She has a good grasp of the basic concepts. The mistakes she made were fixable and that taught her a lot.
Also know that I'm holding a class in the next month or so and it will be recorded. I will be putting the video up here on the blockchain as well. It is focused on people like yourself who are struggling with the concepts of what I speak about. It is my hope that this event will fill in the gaps and provide you with some confidence to do what your heart is telling you, but your brain is screaming nooooooooo. ;)
You have the support around you, not like me when I went down this path alone. I hope this helps you.
I know that Tammy does so much for me when she teaches. I want to say so much but I have a tired brain right now. Your book will be part of my beginning. I have gaps that restrain me from certain things and I am looking forward to finding out what those are and how to fix, follow through and advance. I look forward to your videos as well and if time allows it, I will be honored to have conversations with you. I know you are a busy person and your time is valuable.
You have the perfect way of describing it
Look after yourself first. The rest will come. I'm not going any where. :) Peace to you.