Confession of A Girl In A Narrow Tunnel
In my #introduceyourself post, I only stated 10 facts about me. (If you haven't read it, click here.) I didn’t go to the normal and formal way of introducing myself. I just mention some random things because I was thinking I might create a slam book rather than a blog post. But now, I think there’s no excuse for me since I’ll be participating in @surpassinggoogle #untalented #whoami blog contest.
This is a bit awkward for me but hey, I'll try my very best to evolve and go beyond my comfort shell zone.
Who Am I?
❝ No One is YOU and that is YOUR POWER.❞ - Dave Grohl
Kneelyrac, my username sounds like Kneel, Lyrac, in which Lyrac is the name of a person that is instructed to kneel. I somehow remember the Game of Thrones’ line ‘Bend the Knee or Die’. Now enough with that, I didn’t come up my name because of that line. My username was anagrammed from my name. Well, I really don’t think that it was totally anagrammed since kneelyrac cannot be found in a dictionary however, the concept was similar though.
My real name is Caryl Keen O. Enanor, 24 years of age. My name, Caryl, came from the word ‘Karla’ and Keen, from the word ‘Sharp’. My family calls me Keen-Keen but when my mother gets mad at me, she calls me ‘Waling!’. Waling is the name of my grandmother on my father’s side. Mother would always tell me that I have the same personality with my late grandmother.
In addition, I’m the eldest in the all four Marias. Pisces is my zodiac sign, i.e, I was born on the 26th day of February. I graduated with a degree of Bachelor of Science in Electronics and Communications Engineering and currently working as a Researcher to a Flood Hazard Mapping Project. I haven't taken up the Licensure Board Examination since I need to save for the expenses for the 6-month review in Cebu.
Dreams in life
❝There's nothing wrong with being a Dreamer if dreaming means trying to do things better.❞ - Unknown
I'm a dreamer. Sometimes or I should say most of the time, I daydream. I have so many dreams in life, well, of course, everyone does. As for me, I categorized my dreams into 3, namely, short-term, long-term and the last one is the lifetime term. I named it a lifetime since it can never be done unless I change my past through a time machine or time-turner. Anyways, I will enumerate the long-term and lifetime term dreams of mine
Long-Term
- Be able to save money and take the board exam so that I can be a Licensed ECE and Technician. Hopefully in God’s perfect time.
- To have my own Library.
- Work abroad specifically in Japan.
- If I can’t work in Japan, then maybe I could just visit it. SoKor is the second one. Well, not the two only, to travel around the globe would be perfect!
- To be able to buy a Platinum ticket in one of One OK Rock concert and meet and greet them as well.
- Have a room full of anime collections.
- To pursue my newly found passion, photography and with that, I must have my own camera!
- Also, to see my three sisters become successful professionals.
Lifetime-Term
- Become a Licensed Pharmacist.
- After that, to be a military doctor.
- Be a PMA graduate, in the air force to be exact.
Things I Like
❝ Always find time for things that make you happy to be alive.❞ - Unknown
Would you look at that? My face is so big! Hah! I’d be lying if eating is not on the list. So yeah, eating is one of the many things I like the most and it’s on the first list. It really did a good job overtaking reading, dancing and drawing/sketching.
If there is one thing that I can hoard, that would be Books!! I may not write the reading first but still, reading is number one in my heart. It may not be the first thing that I did like in kindergarten days but still reading is my first love. The library is indeed a sweet haven for me wherein I could stay there all day long.
If I could choose between the four: Hollywood series, Anime, Korean Drama and Sci-Fi Movies, well, I would definitely jump and watch Anime. But please don’t make me choose between Harry Potter Series and Anime.
The picture above was when I enrolled to a dance class on my birth month. It was a gift for myself! Now, Dancing is a part of me. When I heard music, my face and body stay static but deep inside I’m dancing!! However, I stopped dancing due to the fact that I’m a working gal already and I can’t afford to be late at work the following day because I got tired of practicing.
Drawing was the first thing that I learned in my kindergarten days. I still remember that I used to draw humans in their big mansion, with a happy family. I sometimes drew witches flying on their broomstick and a lot more. Now the picture above are some of my drawings and you can see there that my main subject are almost Anime character!!
Photography would be the last since I started loving it because of Instagram and that was only last year. You know that feeling when you're okay with the set-up of not being able to join in a picture? And you're just being fond of watching the nature, events, objects, buildings and other subjects that speak in the photos? I must admit I'm so into photography right now!
Strengths and Weaknesses
❝ Knowing your weakness is a Strength. ❞
I’ve known my strengths when I was in High School. I was such a competitive girl with full of confidence. I'm very bubbly and loud which makes me a nosy gal to anyone who does not know me. I'm very optimistic and somehow a bit dominant.
But when I'm in college, the foundation that has been built was cracked because of one mistake in my freshman days in college. My strengths have been affected in such a way that it leaves a huge mark and until now I’m still figuring out on how to overcome it.
I don’t have the same confidence I’ve had before. One of my Professors believed in me but I still can't find a way of telling myself, "Hey! You can do that!" but rather, I would end up saying, "It's too difficult. I can't solve that." Until the end of the semester, he still believed in me and I'm much grateful that even a terror professor like him feels that way.
Now aside from my family and my closest friends, there is one person that believes in my strength - my college classmate, my colleague and that is my boyfriend. He knew when did I start to have a low confidence. He knew that I was just belittling myself so he keeps on encouraging me and makes me participate in the things I find it hard and beyond my scope and limitations.
The confidence turns to an inferiority complex. Yes, even at work, I still have that. I keep on asking myself, why I turn out to be this kind of person. My strengths that I’ve known since I was in High school experienced a great inclination, not just the confidence but everything. The only strength I have is that I still believe I can balance the seesaw that has been inclined for so long. There is still a light in a narrow tunnel I’m in right now i.e. hope never leaves me from the day I experienced my first and great downfall.
Help Thyself
❝ Only you who can save yourself! ❞
As you can see, there's a Charizard that looks like a Horsea. I drew a Dragon there since Dragon is the icon used by College of Engineering in our University. The Dragon symbolizes being strong, brave, courageous, fierce and I always think that since I survived engineering then I am a blazing Dragon Warrior and I can beat these electrons around me! I may be at my low at this moment but I know, by the time my wings are fully healed, I can soar high and be a brave warrior that I can be.
In addition, I sometimes dance to clear my mind, watch anime to calm myself, eat to let out the stress and I draw to express myself.
These are some of the things I drew when I'm feeling blue.
It shows how either be chaotic or full my mind is. I've got too many words juggling around my head, it may be my feelings, emotions, or ideas but still, I can't voice it out.
It feels like I'm being captive by my own self. The hole symbolizes the electron that is inside me.
Lastly, I always put on a smile on my face. In this picture, it was a face with a smile that doesn't reach to its eyes. It looks like a fake smile but no, she's smiling amidst the negativity she has right now! Look at those eyebrows, it pointed downwards. It really shows sadness but still manages to continue fighting.
Now that would be all to my #untalented #WhoAmI blog post. It's kinda weird to share and post it here knowing that others will know what you are feeling and experiencing right now. Nevertheless, I guess this is a good start to become a better version of me and that is because of @surpassinggoogle.
- Thank you so much, sir for imparting your great ideas and encouraging people, not just the beginners to express and show to everyone that we can be what we wanted to be as long as we believe in ourselves! *
And also, I would like to mention these people, @long888, @deeday31, @asbonclz, g10a and @birjudanak, who helped me, gave me some tips and assisted me in my journey here in Steemit.
So that would be all guys, next is my #untalented 2.0.
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I have a lot of things to say here, LOL but before that I would like to say this blog is indeed made perfectly you have at least present everything significant about you and I appreciate you for that esp. on your dreams in life part.
The mere fact that you have set those dreams whether you considered them as something achievable or not yet someone who knows what he/she really wants in life is something commendable as not all people esp as young as you to really have that focus in life or already into the right direction.
I hope and pray you will be able to save for your review and exam in due time, and I can see steemit can be a good source with those generous people in it.
And the way you write? It would not be impossible for you to earn hundreds of dollars here on steemit not to mention your skills and talents in arts and dancing hehe.
Share some of your dance moves in your future blogs...Let us see if you are qualified to work in Japan, hehe joke!
Lastly thanks for the mention, we are always here to support you and lets help one another for the whole group to prosper.
Waaaah! Kuya, I don't know what to say! While reading your comment, it feels like a Father, an older brother or an uncle is commenting and appreciating my works. Thank you kuya! Struggles in life made me who I am today. I thank God for that. Plus, I'm the eldest so maybe that's one of the driving force. Hopefully kuya, in God's perfect time but also, I need to work harder for me to earn a bit more so that I will not be able to disregard my responsibilites as the eldest while saving money for the review.
You inspire me a lot kuya. You're working hard as an OFW but also you're a full time blogger! Thank you for appreciating this post and the way I write. Although somehow I believe I have this so-called "engineering english" hehehe
Also I don't know how to upload videos here in steemit unless it's in youtube. But I doubt if I could share some dance moves. heheh. To work in Japan would be great!!! Hohoho. I still have a 2-year contract but still I'll pursue that dream. Hopefully.
Thank you thank you thank you kuya!!!! God bless you and your family! You're such a good Samaritan. Cheers to more blogging in the future! Kampaaiii
I have known you since we were playing jackstone and 'patentero' in elementary days up to highshool. I have known u since both of us have those slimy yucky green colored pus like nasal discharges entering and exiting in our nose and we didn't even bother to wipe those mucusy thinga. I have known you since the day you were keep on talking and idolizing Harry Potter and how you would illustrate him to us as one of the most handsome human being here on earth. I have known you with all the crushes you have mentioned to us (with our two other bff). I have known you to the extent that I cant forget when you magically fell down in our school's rusty gate. And with ALL the 'many to mention' crazy stufs we do back then and until now I AM ONE DEFINITELY YOUR NUMBER 1 FAN( well, your mom is 1st of course, and i need to say this because auntie might spang me lol!) . Maybe not from the very start I did noticed your uniqneness and special WERPA but i can assure to any that i will be the one who will keep on supporting you all the way through your journey! AJA to more dreams, wishes and hopes to accomplishe in life!!!!
HAHAHAHHA! OMG! Those embarrassing moments of my High school life! I've known you too dai and will never ever forget the day that you and Bitang's gate collide leaving you a very big and dark blackeye! hahahaha Thank you for this dai. Ajah! We just have to keep swimming even though we both don't know how to swim. Cheers to more dreams and accomplishment in life! Camera nato diha hehehe.
AJA! for the very mahal camera!!! hahahah
sis.. i need another time to read the entire blog.. :)
It's okay po :)
Wow this is a high quality untalented post. :) congrats kabayan
Thank you kabayan. Actually, this is not my introduction post. hehe. My introduction post was very short compared to this.
I am sure you can see the difference 😉 @kneelyrac
#untalented simply allows room for freedom, it doesn't mean untalented
Agreed with you terry thats how we celebrate freedom of posting 😍
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super taas! Welcome to Steemit
Haha. Yes super taas nga po. Thank you po :)
ameeeeygaaaa ko na!!! yahoooo!! congrats ling!
hahaha! sasaw jud kay ka dai! hoho naulaw baya ko ani.
hii dear @kneelyrac, wellcome to steemit, and you should be proud to be the part of #untalented family, we all there wellcome you and under the guidance, suggestions and kind support of great @surpassinggoogle you alongwith us learnt better and best.my support with you ...Follow..
Steem On!
Thank you so much! :)
great dear friend @kneelyrac I'm so pleased to join the #untalented family thank you @surpassinggoogle
Thank you for appreciating my post. :)
Honestly I didn't manage to read all of it. I kept reading and felt endless , but definitely I wanna see the end too. Nice job, nice age and very smart. And I like your drawings
Yes, this post was too long. At first I want to merge the 1.0 and 2.0 but then someone suggested not to. Pictures play a good role in which you need to scroll down a little bit since they are quite big.
But anyways, thank you! Thank you for appreciating my drawings. :)
It is better this way. And don't worry about article if it's too long. It is not. It's perfect. As long as what you write makes sense then it's perfect.
Thank you for this!! It means a lot. :)
Your posts also rank in google and can impact someone in the world out there. Alot of steemit growth is built around ranking in the search engines as well. My posts are always along. Plus in #untalented relegate reservations. Shine instead
Wow! I never thought it will reach that far. I thought reaching to 20 steemians are far enough. This is all because of you and those who introduce your blogs to me. I know there are lot of people out there who don't believe in their talents and capabilities and keep on belittling themselves. I hope that somehow they will learn something from my blog. Thank you again!
Watch boku no pico, no I mean boku no hero LOLLLL. Hahaha, nice post kabayan.
Hahahahaha! I'm done with the season 1. pero no time pa para sa season 2. Hehe thank you!
Welcome here.
Ooohhh! From bitlanders! Thank you :)
Filipino here ☺. I really love the concept of your blog. It also gives me an idea ☺ congrats
Hello kapwa bisaya! heheh Thank you for this! Submit your own untalented entry too! :)
Nice to have seen you
Too lengthy but worth reading! You're from where diay? @kneelyrac?
Thank you! I'm from Kauswagan, LDN. 1 hour ride from Iligan City.
oh I see. I'm from one of the Islands in Visayas
Nice post, nice art . Nice pics . U define ur name very good, u post a good article Caryl keen
Wow! I never really thought it'll end this way. Thank you for appreciating my post
This is way more than untalented post! Congratulations, @kneelyrac! You are right with @surpassinggoogle. He's just one of the geniuses in this community! I hope you can reach your goals and will be successful here in Steemit! Blessings!
Thank you for this! Thank you for appreciating my untalented post! And yes, he really is a genius.
Thank you
Hahaha thank you.
"We are genius!"
wow what a great post..love it..@kneelyrac
Thank you!! :)
your welcome ^_^
Good article Karla keen, u good define your name, posting amazing pics, ur post and u both beautiful ..
Thank you so much :)
Please do world standard. The world is what's here. Nation being location.. So write lengthy when you decide to. You can put the "YOU" that exists fully into some summaries. So go hard. Catwalk that walk, let it halt cos you walked and your presence filled it. Mahaba is want will help you stand out even here
Honestly, I got worried when my drafts reached thousands of words. And it's hard for me to delete because I though every words play a significant role in that blog. Thank you for this! I'll keep this in my mind. :)
Welcome to Steemit, @kneelyrac!
Thank you for the warm welcome!! :)
Looks like you have many talents @kneelyrac, welcome to Steemit!
Oh, not really but thanks! :)
Wow! Ang haba sis. Hehe. Welcome to steemit. 😊
Yes sis. Medyo mahaba talaga. Nakadagdag pa yung mga pictures. Hehe
Nice nice! Maayo man diay ka mo drawing, suggest nako i-blog imung drawing under "art" nga tag kay daghan2x pud curator ana nga tag. And don't forget to use steemph & philippines nga tags para ma support kas mga kababayan nato :)
Hehe thank you kaau! Pero manghunat sako medyo maulaw man ko magblog ana kau gatanaw2 man ko siksik man kaau sila. Hahaha.
Sige2. Steemph. Pwede pa mailisan na instead sa blog kana ako ibutang?
Ayaw kaulaw oy sus hahaha mas siksik ka! ECE man diay ka hahahaha! Ayaw kaulaw kay walay manaway nimo diri. Buotan mga tao diri.
Hehehe sige2. Itry nako. Ako lang ispecify na outline drawing lang ako ginabuhat or doodle ba kaha. Hoho. Mataha man ko kay very detailed kaau ilaha. Kapuyan kog inana man ui samot ko way tulog ana. hehe ou ECE ko. Ako itry na. open man pod kog constructive criticism. :)
WOW! nice one, indeed a high quality post mate @kneelyrac., I like the way when you're feeling blue.. hehehe
Something's fishy sa I like that way na part. But anyways, thank you mate :)
What can i say. I just retouched me what the #untalented family aims to represent. Thank you for joining. Creating history it is. Please read my last post if you can. Let's play. Welcome on to steemit. Stay awesome!
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OMG! Thank you so much. You inspire me a lot. I will surely read your recent post. :)
Impossible not to admire and love him. It is a beautiful and healthy virus, you are already infected. Welcome.
I loved that phrase of yours "keep reading is my first love" I feel identified, however I think it was my second love, because the first was my father. Hahaha
Affection.
Thank you! Hopefully I can finish the 2.0.. Haha yes reading is my first love when it comes to the things I want to do. But definitely my father is my first love when we're talking about affection to people..
I am glad you let me. untalented 3.0, will be up in my next post.
3.0 will be out? Well ofcourse, I'll participate in untalented 3.0 but first, I need to finish my 2.0 hehe
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hi again :) wow. anime and talking about GOT! u are on cool chick! :P and u draw good, too.. i like ur anime girl with the red eyes best! see ya Caryl,
Woow!This post is too old yet you still read it. Thank you for the compliment and for taking time to read this one.
:) it was nice to know more about u. i'll save the upvotes for ur posts still to come..