My stance is that you have zero background in science and medicine, and are ignorant on the current topic.
Instead of backing it up with fact and logic you make claims devoid of either.
This is a huge waste of time as nothing I could show you would convince you vaccines are safe and effective. You will only deny it saying that the research has been bought and paid for.
We will never know as you haven't done that one time, and your prediction is hardly considerate.
In the end, you are hurting yourself, your family, and your loved ones. Chances are you will come to regret your decision to forgo vaccination when someone dies of an easily preventable disease.
Appeal to emotion.