Your brain is a pattern seeking machine... and you programmed it to look for a pattern. This is exactly what is meant by "Seek and ye shall find." It's wonderful to have such profound experiences.
It is also easy to get taken by it. Just because you had these experiences, do not make them any more valid. Just because they were profound to you, does not mean that they will have the same effect on others. This is the most difficult thing for most people to accept: Just because you feel or believe something, doesn't make it so for anyone else but you.
I always said that I would never go hunting. But when I did, I had a similarly profound experience, it was like the buck chose me to shoot it and I blanked out when I pulled the trigger and it was like a greater invisible hand took over. It was a spiritual experience.
In the coming days I had to reconcile myself with the idea that humans have been hunter-gatherers for centuries and that there are experiences, rituals and routines part of our brains that warp when applied to modern living.
I once heard that oldest indigenous culture of South Africa, the "Bushmen", only have two commandments: Don't kill more than you can eat, and don't eat before you share with your tribe. Just think how having a refrigerator messes with that.
Life is special, but it's also fleeting. If I were a cow, I would eat grass all my life just so you could eat me and save some time and achieve something better... maybe.