Yes, I can only imagine. I had a dream or memory once that finally gave me insight into my younger past and abuse that occurred. I have discussed this with some close to me and it was part of my own personal healing. Like you, I was unaware of some strange fears and my abusive marriage, I think was part of a twisted reliving of something I was too young to understand.
I am so happy that you found your safe place in your husband and have been able to move forward. Hugs.
I am glad that you've finally been able to find your other half as well. It makes a difference <3
Thank you @byn. I never have had a relationship like this and I am finding it so nice to know this level of comfort.