I was just watching a seminar with Simon Sinek and a woman called Kristen Hadeed about millennials in the work place and how we reshape the way business run their companies and their staff etc. Got me thinking about how I see work and what I've experienced over time working in a call centre environment
Like for years my main goal was to progress and become someone important, someone with power and responsibility, because growing up I was never that type but always wanted to be. And so this was trained into me unintentionally over time.
But with work I came to realise that I was seeing a pattern, and I feel that this is for many many different companies today, it's who you know, not what you know. I've came across talented dedicated smart individuals who get overlooked and never truly heard. I have even seen literally office favouritism in the past too, which a lot of the time is harmless right, but sometimes you get the sense that you got no chance unless you brown nose your way to the top. This angered me but at the same time motivated me thinking that I will eventually one day make it without brown nosing folk but allowing my talent and work shine and be noticed and rewarded.
But over the last couple of years, I realised something. And that is if I'm not happy with myself, and I'm not confident and willing to open up, then how will I ever achieve what I've always wanted. So I started to rethink where I want to go in work. And I decided that I don't want to progress up the ladder, I much prefer to learn, achieve and improve at my own level of work.
People known me as a complainer, a moaner, pessimistic etc because I recognise problems very easily and predict bad stuff happening quite good but can never come up with solutions. I learned to voice my concerns even if it makes me look bad because if something prevents me from doing my job affectively then I will say it and I don't hold back any punches. That attitude is always looked over because it's not because I don't have valid points it's because of how I express them.
So I'm happy at just improving me, and improve the level I'm at. One day I might make it, maybe I won't, but I ain't going to dwell on it anymore.
I reduced my hours at work for health reasons but also mentality, because if you don't have balance then how can you enjoy life right? My life is pretty good right now despite my personal issues, and I intend to improve on that rather than focusing on improving my way up the ladder.
Blabbering over with, goodnight all!