When I was laying in bed in the hospital fighting for my life a number of years ago, I was visualizing and fantasizing in my mind in order to sort of "bring myself back to life" what kind of awesome adventures I might have if I ever got out of there and got home and healthy again and... In some ways some of what I was hoping for never happened, but... In some other ways some stuff happened that was even more amazing and epic than I dreamed about. <3
Also... It's not too late for some of that other stuff either! It's just kind of on hold for the moment, but I'd still like to pursue some of that other stuff in the future too! And... I have a feeling some more epic stuff is still yet to surprise me. :)
This picture is a picture my father took of me when I was in the hospital.
I can't remember if I was passed the part where I was struggling to breathe and worried about whether I would wake up the next day or not... But, I was definitely past the worst of it being in the ICU and then the transfer to physical rehab and the first couple nights there was absolutely friggin brutal... Anyways... Um...
In this picture the light beam almost perfectly lined up with the crystal I was holding and my dad considered it like a spiritual sign. In fact, numerous things happened around the house while I was gone that defied logical explanation like things in the house falling down after sitting in the same spot for years or even decades like a framed image on the wall and a book falling mysteriously and opening up to a certain page and there was at least one other one I forget... I forget all the details, but some weird stuff happened.
And... Weird stuff continues to happen.
I never expected such an incredible adventure and also one that I would get to share so much with both of my parents and my brothers and sister and one of my friends in person.
It's been absolutely so much fun and when I lay in bed at night I feel immense peace and gratefulness and happiness and so many positive emotions...
I was so close to leaving this world, it's incredible that I'm still here and still able to do so much that I love! <3
So thankful every single day. <3
