Sacrifice of a mother...

While others are throwing their baby after birth. And others take abortion when they get pregnant because they're not ready to become a parents. Here I am sacrificing just to keep my baby alive.
As i have written before, I am an APAS patient. I have this syndrome in my blood that when i get pregnant my blood's become a poison to my baby if i won't take proper medication. So,i really need to be more careful of myself and follow all the doctors instruction. I take all these vitamins and medicines everyday.

I'm 21weeks pregnant and it's a baby boy.
I have to make sure not to skip my vitamins. Especially my injection.

Yes! I take injection every night. To normalized my blood flow. It is painful but i have to sacrifice for my baby. For him to survive until i deliver him. We're not rich but by God's grace we survived. There's no one we can depend on but him. Only him can provide what my baby needs. So, I'm not worried at all.
This baby is his Christmas gift to us. We're not planing this because honestly, we're not financially stable yet. But He give it to us. It is a blessing to our family. And my daughter is always wishing to have a baby brother. She's the most happiest when she know that she's having a brother. She's so excited. She always ask when his brother comes out.

When i see my daughters reactions. I can say that my sacrifices is worth it. And even if i suffer the pain every day for nine months. And experience again the pain of delivering a child. I think i can endure the pain because of her. I will just think that it will make her happy at the end. It's her dream. And i make her dream came true.

On the other hand,I feel pity to those new born babies who be thrown by their mothers. It's so sad to see that they suffered for their mother's mistake. I ask why they need to throw them. Why not give it to those who can't have a baby. Those who are waiting for years and doing anything just to have one. Those who can be a responsible parents. Those who can raise them well. Don't they have a heart? How can they do that to their own blood? I hope someday those womens realize how blessed they are.

Thank you for reading!!!
**God bless us!! **