I love reading, and I was like that since I was a kid.
I was a real "book worm", started reading silly and short books for kids, full of illustrations, and have gone to more advanced books with more complex plots as I turned into a teenager.
At age 15 I have got my first job, it was online and remote, I was a ghostwriter, I wrote articles for blogs. As a ghostwriter, I got the money, but the "signature" of the text would be the one of the client that asked for my work. I am ok with that, I love reading and writing and I was making some money, so I really don't care about the reputation, I care about the "art".
Nowadays, I also work with "text" and language I could say. Currently I work remotely in the are of customer relations in a small cryptocurrency exchange. And in my free time I post and read posts here on Steemit.
I also have another hobby on my free time. Writing fictional stories, short ones, that I do not share, but I keep them to myself, writing is a hobby I love. Feeling the keyboard under my fingers. And when writing I have an amazing feeling that I don't know how to describe, but I will try:
Do you know that feeling when you were in school, and you had a very hard exercise to complete, or a difficult mathematical problem to solve, and after you work hard on it, there is a feeling of deep and true satisfaction? The same feeling of satisfaction when you finish a puzzle, or pass a difficult level on a game.
I get that feeling whenever I am writing. Of course, my writing is not worth a Pulitzer Prize or anything near that. Far from that actually, by writing to @utopian-io I have discovered I still have a veeeery long way to go. And I am working contantly to improve my writing, though, the better I get (and I still suck at it), the slower I improve.
But the point is, I love the feeling I get on my head, and I am getting this right now, of my brain connecting the ideas, and turning the ideas into words, and my fingers turned those words into text. It is a feeling of "completeness". Maybe not everyone feels that when they are working their brains, maybe this is a nerds thing, but the feeling of my brain working is amazing.
But, it is hard to write. I am writing a personal biography, I think I will never publish it, I am doing it just because I like to write, but I am stuck on the first 3 chapters for 2 months already. I am, usually, not that slow to write. I thought I would be able to finish at least one chapter a week, but I can't.
Charles Bukowski said that "if it does not come bursting out of you, don't do it". And I understand what he mean.
I like to write because, usually, I sit on my computer, and the ideas come bursting from my head out of my fingers. I have to hold myself to be able to organize everything. Part of why my writing is not good is because I try to say too many things and can't organize my ideas (this has to do with my ADHD, when I am on meds I don't have ideas). But this biography is the hardest thing I have ever worked at.
The ideas for the biography don't come "bursting" from my head out of my fingers. And that is n to because I have nothing to write, but because I think I could resume my life in very few word. I don't think I have much to say, even though I have lived in 4 cities in my country, 1 city abroad for 1 year, I am taking my second university degree, I have started working with Bitcoin around 2014, but followed it before with a few friends, I saw the market crash twice, started working as a writer at age of 15, I have a relatively nice CV on my career working for blockchain networks, I mean, just look at it, does not sound like a lot, but I should at least get a dozen chapters out of that, right? I saw a lot of things, I went to many places, I worked at many places.... My biography is very closely related to blockchain because, before I worked on blockchain companies, I was an investor (very small one, I was a teenager), and before I was an investor I was an "admirer", following the market, laughing at the crashes with my friends, discussing the news....
Yes, I can't write about it. The first week I was working at that biography, I sat down, and had that "burst" Bukowski talks about, I wrote like 3 pages, with my brain firing with ideas and memories. But when I finished, I looked at what I did.... And it was 3 pages... All my life resumed in 3 pages...
It is hard to write, it is harder to write about ourselves.
I am just posting it here because eI was thinking about it, and wanted to share this thought. I think I will give up on that project before I spend too much time on that, but I really wish I could do that biography. As I have said, that project is one of the things I want to write for myself, but even though, I am sad that I don't think I can finish it, maybe I it disappoints me even more because it is something I am doing for myself, not for money, nor for someone else, yet, I can't do it...
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