Moment to Moment Part one

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I’m walking in the wind down empty streets, a river of stars overhead. Drifting amid starry rifts, laughing about small things she’s said.

And I’ve done this so long it seems so real and I swear somewhere she’s doing the same—walking in the wind down starry streets, below the horizon, hidden from me.

I close the laptop and stare off into space.

Where are you, Love—where is the world hiding you?



It’s so maddening—I can sense her presence getting stronger day by day, and yet I’m no closer to meeting her.

I share my frustrations with Tom Dunn, my therapist.

“What does she look like?”

I lift up empty hands, palms open in a gesture of futility.



“I have no idea—I don’t really see her clearly—but I know her voice, or at least her patter, her turn of phrase.”

He nods, as if that makes sense.

“So, what do you do in your dreams?”

“It’s a mixture of reality and fantasy. Sometimes we sit and talk—sometimes we kiss. Occasionally, we fly together over the town.”

“You mean, you actually fly—like lovers in a Chagall painting?”

“Exactly.”

“Hmm. Interesting.”



I hate that word—it probably means he thinks I’m delusional or hallucinating.

“Sometimes during the day I’ll feel her presence around me—I’ll hear her faintly whispering.”

“Do you ever see her—such as in a vision or apparition?”

“No, but I have woken up talking to her and when I try to look into her face, she disappears—that’s crazy, isn’t it?”



He smiles sympathetically.

“No, I wouldn’t call your experience crazy. What you’re describing falls under the heading of anomalous experiences—and they often occur in people who are quite sane.”

“You know the weird thing about this—I don’t feel she’s a ghost or spirit guide, or anything like that. I don’t even think she’s a dream character or figment of my imagination. I think she’s an actual person.”

His pupils dilate.



“What makes you think that?”

“I don’t know—it’s the feel of the whole thing. Oh sure, we do fantastical things like fly together above the city, but I keep getting the distinct sensation that she’s real. It’s sort of like the Turing test—you just know when you’re talking to a real person, not a computer.”

“But in the case of the Turing test the computer is real. How can you be so sure about this strange woman?”

I take a deep breath before answering.



“I don’t know. Maybe she’s another dreamer who happens to go to the same place in her dreams as me. We meet up there, and are attracted to each other, and keep returning to the same locale.”

“But this ‘dream locale’ is not an actual place in reality, right?”

I sigh. “Right. It’s a familiar place, but somewhere I’ve never been except in dreams.”



He looks at his watch. “Well, I think we’ve gone about as far as we can today—we’ll have to continue this next session.”

“Is this going to go on forever, Doc?”

“I don’t know, Muir. As we go through the process these things tend to be resolved. We’ve only been at this for two weeks now. You have to be patient.”

“I’ll try.”

“We’re making progress—hold onto that thought.”

Easy for him to say, when I’m barely holding on.



© 2018, John J Geddes. All rights reserved



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Interesting, so everything so far has been but a dream. I can see how dreams seem so real sometimes but enough to see a therapist? He is definitely fixated on this, poor guy. Muir does seem extremely sensitive, noticing the therapist's eyes dilating.

you're a very perceptive reader - but to be fair to Muir, he sees the girl, although indistinctly, just after awakening and he is struck by how life-like this experience is - if not a dream, then a powerful hallucination. It would be scary, I think.

When I read it, I felt that the reason of this story is he can feel clearly his soulmate.. She is his soulmate and show herself to him. Somehow they contact.. but I wonder the rest of story ;)

yes, I think the idea of soul mates is a good one, but why do they only make contact in dreams? It's a bit of a mystery

nice story bro i like it thanks @mediaservice

I think our mind create our perfect partner in our heads. But near as I can tell, you only ever get to tap into them in dreams. You are quite the metaphysical romantic, John:) Great write:)

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Qué historia tan interesante y hasta, si se puede decir, muy actual, mi muy estimado @john. Creo que es más común de lo que creemos que las personas se puedan sentir atraídos por personajes inventados por nosotros mismos, imágenes que cargamos con todas las virtudes que nos puedan interesar de otras personas. Este relato es mágico! El amor visto desde el ideal, de lo soñado y de la conexión genuina. Cuantas personas pueden sentir que hay algo especial detrás de una pantalla de computadora, detrás de una carta, de un poema, detrás de la persona que escribe. Tan lejos y tan cerca. Disfrutando la lectura, te saludo.

Such great dialogue, it flows wonderfully. I'm intrigued! Have always been an admirer of your poems but am so glad to now get in on the 'ground floor', so to speak, with one of your fiction writes.

The idea of meeting someone in a dream has always fascinated me - I very rarely had lucid dreams about it myself, where the person I met in the dream was actually real and existed on some distant continent. The bizarreness is captivating and very romantic, in a strange way... I feel I can't express why... Looking forward to part two at any rate!

amazing writing by you.

  • Realistic approach
  • Any one who read that feels deep into it.
  • Nice ways to show feeling.
  • Good flow in writing.
    Thanks