In another world you never experienced what you experienced. The world never weathered you the way it did, it never dug into the soul of you.
In another universe, we didn’t have any questions. We didn’t have any other choices to make, any other options. In another universe, we didn’t worry about the statistics or the odds. We didn’t worry about regretting the way we chose to let our young hearts love, we didn’t worry about letting our young hearts risk.
But I try not to think about that universe, I try not to think about the “what ifs.” I try not to think about the depth of feeling at the end of all of this. I try not to think about the potential that hangs within the air, the capacity for us to meet again when we are both ready. I try not to think about that possibility, because right now I am living in a universe where love wasn’t enough. Where love didn’t win, or triumph, or come out on top. Right now, I am here — without you, and in this universe I am teaching my heart to be okay with that. Right now, I am learning that it is okay to stop fighting. To lay down my arms. To let things be.
So yes. Maybe in another time, in another universe, you and I are together in the kitchen of your apartment while I burn the toast we are making for breakfast, and we’re just so happy. We are happy and that is all we need. But not here. Not in this universe. In this universe, I am taking all of the trips we planned alone. I am making myself breakfast in my own apartment. I am still burning the toast but you’re not there to laugh it off with me. In this universe, I am healing. I am growing. I am stretching into the space you used to occupy in my life, and I am learning how to be thankful for that. In this universe, I am choosing closure, even though it feels wrong and out of place. In this universe, I am moving on, even though it feels unnatural, even though it feels like I am leaving something looming behind. In this universe, I am setting you free.”
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a cool prose. sentences flowing and very readable. thank you for sharing, and why go to another world first to be like you wrote below?
Thanks, and cheers. :D
i'm glad you like it...hey, please how did you come up with the way you type. i like it when i see people type like this and partition it with a line. thanks @footsteem
If you type in the esteem application, you should use some markdown code. But if you type in busy.org you can select it directly in the markdown box without having to code.