Where it was when I needed you? I was looking for you, and you were not there. Instead of you, I felt a distance, a fog, an absence, a wall. I stretched and stretched out, looking for you, but you were not there.
It was like a shadow - here you are, and you are not there.
Why did you betray me like that? Why did he hurt me? Did not I like it? Did not I deserve your attention?
It was cold to me. I was alone. I was looking for love and affection - but I only felt cold.
Why did you leave me alone in the cold and the darkness?
I was afraid - I wanted you to hug and warm me, comfort me and calm down.
I was standing and waiting for you, but you never came. He watched aside as it all happened and closed his eyes.
Your heart was closed, and my heart was too slow.
I was tired of waiting a day. I was tired of crying.
I froze to the bone and no longer felt anything. The tears withered, my heart cold, my soul groaned.
I had to go on my own - alone in the big, unknown world. I did not know, and I had to grow up quickly, learn from my mistakes, struggle against the walls, struggle with obstacles.
It hurt me, but I had to go on - without support, without advice, alone in the unknown. No navigation, no compass. And I was often lost, wandering, and spinning in circles.
At these times, I wanted you to be with me, I needed your support.
But I was disappointed again, I was getting confused and started blaming myself.
I thought I was responsible for everything.
And I was punishing myself, I was communicating. I never loved because I did not think you loved me.
I was tortured, I was causing pain, and you did not stop. He stood and watched silently, and he often turned his head.
He expected me something - I do not know what. I never did. I did not understand what you wanted from me ...
From me or myself?
I understand - you've seen yourself in me.
Much love - Krisii
I can relate - thanks :)
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Yea .... some peole just go when we most need them ......
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