I found this to be true when I was in college. I can't remember what the assignment was, but I decided to write about a friend who was murdered about 5 years earlier. I had last seen him about 5 years before that. Sure, I had thought about him, but something about writing about him brought forth emotions I wasn't ready for. I was sitting in the middle of the computer lab trying not to break down in front of everyone.
Maybe someday I'll write about him. His murder had political repercussions in Ireland, where it happened.
Oh wow. I am so sorry. That is so scary.
Yes, it sounds like it is something that you have been carrying for too long. When you are ready, please reach out to me in chat for support. I know it will be difficult, just know I am here for you.
Thank you.