Please forgive my intrusion on this deeply personal sharing you posted. But it pains me to see you repeatedly say things along these lines.
I'm weird and something is wrong with me.
I can't help but think the world would be a better place if more people were what you are. I don't care for most people, as their energy and persona they display don't align. You have good energy and display thought-full-ness.
When it comes to women, I have to suspect part of the issue is split between the quote of yours above coupled with putting women on a pedestal. Women by nature utilize their social adeptness as that is their muscle to flex. They pick up on subtleties, and guessing your feelings on yourself is not so subtle for them. Loving yourself is a step in the right direction, as most women will not wish to be with a man who feels he is not worthy. Women are drawn to men who understand exactly how worthy he is, even when the men aren't (hence the stereotype that women love assholes). You have so many gifts you bring to us, and as soon as you understand and treasure it properly you will find women will view you differently.
I wish you well and hope you will understand that true alchemy is one of transforming the self by brushing off the impurities that hide the gold of your heart. From where I sit it is easy for me to see that gold in you.
It's okay. You're not intruding. It is personal, but I share this to the public because I feel they may help someone else in some way and I welcome any genuine feedback.
That was very touching and quite humbling. Thank you for such kind words. It warmed my heart and I feel similar about you! I already sort of mentioned this on my other response to you a lil earlier, but you're one of the people I resonate the most with here on steem and I'm glad we met and have been able to talk a bit and share ideas!
I think I agree with pretty much everything you said there and I appreciate how you said "most" women cause some are certainly different, though I do think it is probably "most" and that you are likely correct there.
The example of the stereotype of women loving assholes is a good one, and I think it does have to do with a sort of positive self-image and confidence even if those assholes don't "truly" love themselves at a deep level and it's more of a facade and outer appearance.
I do feel like my odds have improved a lot just by being more confident in myself, I think that the energy you put off is really important and that people generally probably wanna be around good energy and not negative energy. Once again, not "ALWAYS", but generally.
Thanks for the well wishes and for the thoughtful advice and response!
Aw. I appreciate that and will continue to work on the alchemy of brushing off impurities to reveal more of the gold. :) I think a major part of that is me finally acknowledging and admitting those impurities and facing them and accepting them, as weird as that may seem and I still don't totally understand it, but somehow I think I need to love and accept even the worst parts of myself before I can properly change them in a more positive manner. I guess we'll see what happens! Though I think I'm on a better path now and thank you again for the nice message. I see a lot of gold in you as well! Peace and much love to you. <3