In a film it is always the director's viewpoint you get, so you don't have much of a choice.
I was never the manipulative type (at least that was not my goal, although I have caught myself doing it from time to time, especially on a past boyfriend, this only came from a feeling of insecurity and low self-esteem, perhaps the fact that I consider my self somehow spoilt - as I was the firstborn child of the family - added to this).
What scares me the most is not that I am drawn to such dark deeds, but the fact that I can think of something as sick as this. When I write, I get into the scene, I try to hear, see, smell, even taste(?) what is there and this is disturbing at times.
And I don't think I got to meet or understand better a part of me; through my "depressive" pieces I know it is my tendency to cling to a depressive state of mind every once in a while. My romantic pieces come from an inner longing for romance. The sarcastic... it's just who I am, I sarcastic person. The dark, mysterious and "lethal" I believe are just a bet with myself: "be the bad guy you could and would never become, try to make stories like the ones you watched in those police series you enjoyed in the past".
But you got me into some further thinking now, thanks!! :D
:-) Thanks to you to let me know.
Your post from yesterday was really beautiful - this phenomena in Yosemite National park, the story, the film and the information in the end was a round piece.
Oh! Thank you!
And I feel bad for not making it to read your story yet (I surely haven't forgotten about it)