Hey @hitmeasap 💖 just a heartfelt virtual hug coming your way. Congratulations on being accepted! That is exciting. But, as life has it's way ~ it comes with a lot of pressure. I am curious, can you postpone your start date to the next intake? To relieve some pressure? Sometimes, it seems to me that, there tends to be so much pressure culturally to rush and push! Anxiey and stress get to be seen as normal expected states i wonder why? does it have to be so much to handle all the time? Goodnes knows, school in and of itself, the way they are all set up (sadly) is going to be a lot of pressure. When really, what is the rush? If the timing us not quite right, then just wait! If you think of yourself as a very calm content joyful healthy 93 year old man who has helped so so so so so many people by being the pillar of calm, collected, sure footed and reliable to your friends, family and peers ( so really being yourself! as you are demonstrating through your actions and character at present), --- Will it reall matter if you started your education in 10ish day from now or in 6 month to a year from now? You can answet that for yourself. Is the added strain and pressure of paying off the loan right now worth it? Might it be more reasonable to take some pressure off and just enjoy every single day/ step of the journey? I obviously don't know all the details. And, i am optomistic that support will come through for you and you will be able to start in a few days. But, maybe this is an avenue you have not considered.
It's really nice to get to know you personally @hitmeasap, the way that you have shared with us in this post. It really helps me to get to know you better. Your dad is so proud of you! The man you are, the man you've been. And, the man you are becoming. My great-grandma died in my arms it was a beautiful and sacred experience i would never want to give back. It is a blessing you had those precious moments with your dad too. As terrifying and haunting as it might be, it is better that you were together than him being alone imo. My dad passed away in March 2002, 16 years ago this year. He stayed on to work two extra weeks and on his last day died in a car accident on his way back home afterwork. Work, will always be there. Work will not go away. It's the blessings and spaces between work/ life/ play that really matter again imo. So, check in with yourself, how do those spaces inbetween feel? They are super valuable!!
And, honestly from my heart to yours, you have already made a huge difference in my life! I am beyond thankful for you! Your belief in me. Your kind message that day that advised me (semi quote!) 'take your time, no rush' It brought me tears to feel that compassion and meant so much. I will never forget it. (I was falling into the pressure trap at the time too).
Wishing you lots of love and many blessing and more peace than you know what to do with!! Jill 🌱🌻
Now, I wish I had more Steem Power because you deserve so much more than what I'm capable of rewarding you for this comment.
I don't even know what to say. Thank you @yogajill!
I have 5 days to confirm my spot, and there's still about 2 weeks before I start, so I feel that I have time.. And I also feel that it's doable to achieve this. Sure, it will require a ton of luck but each cent I make brings me closer to the goal and I truly want this education, so I will try my best to make this happen. Without powering down and such.
I'm also glad that I've been able to make a difference for you, in one way or another. That's my true goal in life and on Steemit. To make a difference. Thank you! :)
You're welcome 💖 You're well on your way! I am happy and excited for you for your next steps in your journey!! I find school is so fun that way. So nice to meet a group of like minded people and work so closely with them in such a focused way.
There is something i could use a hand with when you have a bit of time. And, if you are up for it. If you have any reference links or if you can help me with bid bots i'd like to try them out. Been saving up some SBD to try them. I think it is time to give that route a go. 😊
I'm always here to help in any way I can! :)
However, I do believe that it would be easier to do it on Discord, but if you'd rather have that discussion here, I'm okay with that too.
Cool! Thanks so much. Discord is good, i am getting used to it. Just let me know when's a good time. I am winding down to sleep now so maybe another time?
Yeah sure. We can do it another time. No worries. :)