Not to belittle your struggles, just know that everyone goes through this. These problems and solutions are what binds most of us and you are writing thoughts we have all had.
Life isn't what is happening to us so much as how we chose to handle the situations. If you have made it this far, you are a braver warrior than you think and well equipped to cruise right through this as you always have.
Focus on things in your control (crypto NOT being one of them except STEEM posting) and turn your mind to the solution.
It is darkest right before the dawn so go make that sun rise and be ready for the opportunity a new day will present to you.
Thanks for your comment @zekepickleman, I appreciate it.
I really hope so, and this is more or less the same thing I would say to someone else, so I need to continue to believe in it.
You are right. I've tried to focus on things I actually can control, but I've also, in some way, built up some sort of "safety net" around things I cannot control. The value of Steem for instance. I figured out a solid and doable plan, and when I did that, I automatically started to rely on Steem at a minimum of 0,70. The price were higher at the time I figured this whole thing out, so I felt really good about it. It gave me a ton of motivation and encouragement. I knew I'd be able to pull through so to speak.
However, I didn't actually realize that I was relying on crypto itself, as much as I relied on my own strength and commitment to post etc. But it obviously goes hand in hand. It doesn't really matter how much I post if the price declines. It's easy to see that now, but I guess I was being blindfolded by my own ignorance due to the extreme ease of relief I felt when I figured it out. It felt so good so I couldn't think of anything else. It really felt like the absolute best solution at the time, but I can totally see that it was a mistake I made, as I automatically started to rely on the price at the same time.
Thanks for the encouragement!
Well thanks for sharing. Give me a chance to throw my tiny upvote in to help and lets me and other folks know we are not alone in the struggle.
With so many problems/issues to solve, you are just going to be kicking ass when life swings up.
This. That's exactly how I've been looking at some of all these things actually. That's one of the things that's been fueling me.
Especially everything about and around my mental illness. Reasons for it. All the who, why, how and when sort of things. That's one of my two main reasons for my education.
I want to help others who suffers from mental illness. That's the first reason. The second one is that I truly believe that the entire education can function as some sort of "self-heal" along the way.