This a classic also on target response I've come to know you for. I mean damn, that was perfectly put!
I completely empathize with that feeling of not being ready to let go of the anger and I also can't begin to know what lead you to that place but take your time with it.
It doesn't feel fully crystallised and I can't own it as you astutely noted transitions aren't starkly contrasted or compartmentalised. I think I'm about 8 or so years older than you if I recall, I'm 39 and my early 30s is when I first began to kind of mature on some recognizable level. Though I'm fully capable of regression and it's not a pretty picture. I am my own worst enemy and always have been. My suffering is mostly due to stupidity and ego.
Don't fret on the losing my assholeishness 😂 it's a finely tuned craft and intend to keep it readily available just in case.
Have a good one bro, you might not be exactly where you aim to be yet, but you could have easily fooled me as I think you're one of the most observant and level headed minds I've come across.