That's sad to hear. What you need is a routine. You can't wait for life to GIVE you happiness or purpose. It's you who have to go and get it. And it all starts with something productive to do. You are writing on steemit aren't you? That's a start. Find good content to write and share your story. You should pat yourself on your back because you found Steemit on such an early stage.
thanks for yor information .i am here(steemit) to do somthing .i hope i can