Afternoon Steemit,
I don’t really know where to begin. My regular followers will know I am a ’happy go lucky' person. However, those of you who have followed me from the very beginning will know I suffer. Today is one of those days…
Anxiety Rears Its Ugly Head - Again!
I hate this feeling. I was fine this morning, then it got to this afternoon and for no apparent reason I felt snappy, angry, upset and tearful. These feelings just came out of the blue. I try to talk to my friends about how I am feeling, but the majority of them always ask me ”What’s happened?” or ”What’s brought all this on?” Well unless you have been there you wouldn’t have a clue! No one understands why you have no explanation and it ’just comes out of nowhere”. I feel sick in my chest, I am constantly thinking of all the ’what if’s’ Today I feel alone in this big, wide world. Even though I have friends and family that love me. I am having those thoughts of ’Maybe everyone is better off without me’. I’m sure when tomorrow comes, I will wake up feeling different to how I feel now. I know I have a lot to look forward to. I know I am a very lucky person with what I have. Some people might even say I have it all. Sometimes you would rather have nothing and not to have these thoughts and feelings carrying on. I feel so bad today that I don’t even want to eat. I’ve lived on coffee so far and I don’t see that changing at all. All I’ve done this afternoon is be on my own. I’ve sat and cried and have felt completely useless and sorry for myself.
I hope anyone who reads this understands that they are not alone. I wouldn’t want this feeling to happen to my worst enemy. I know I will be alright later, if not today, tomorrow. I don’t want to talk to my mum because I know me being upset makes her upset. That’s the last thing I want. All I do it hide my feelings and emotions. To the outside I am a strong, confident woman. That’s because I hide hide my true feelings so well. Deep down I feel like a broken doll. Just gotta plough through the rest of the day and fingers crossed tomorrow will be a new (and happy) day.
Much love,
Platinum-blue x
I'm sorry to read your story. You should not despair. Every problem should not be brought into the mind too long, because it will make your heart restless. Find someone who really cares about you and wants to understand you, so it will make you feel relieved. Life is beautiful, tell all your problems to God, then your bad feelings will get better. Thank you for sharing your story with me, blessed by God and have a nice day.
@nurmidirman It's really hard having days like this. I really wish they wouldn't appear. That was a really nice comment and made me feel good :-)
Thanks again, I hope so too. Do not despair and keep the spirit. Hope we can become good friends.
I feel you - hope you are well.
God will never give you something that you can't overcome so although now, you may not see the light at the end of the tunnel, one day, you will see the way...
We sometimes underestimate our strength, so when you are about to give up, remember this quote:
"God gives his hardest battle to his strongest soldiers & you are one of them!"
Thank you. I feel a whole lot better today :-) x
I do feel the same way too sometimes, getting angry at peoples movement for no reason, seeing faults in people's laughter blah blah blah. Hope you recover from it soon. Its natural I think?
Thank you @dazzy. It’s a horrible feeling. It’s not nice is it?
Not in any way. Can there be a solution to it?
Dont worry its just one of those bad days, every being on earth experience it once in a while, it will get better... You're not alone.
Hey thanks. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. :-)
Have you paid any attention to the weather when these things happen? I go through a similar reaction every time a high pressure system is moving in. I don't have thoughts of everyone being better off without me, but it comes across as what is the point of continuing when so few care.
Just like you, it's gone by morning. I think it is a reaction to the change in air pressure because it only happens with high pressure is moving in. When it is moving out I feel fine. Something to think about.