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Summary of the Post:
Introduction to my illustration hobby
When did I discovered it?
What compels me to keep it
The demons that came with the passion and sacrifices made.
Vanquishing the demons and the madness they left.
The beginning
Final thoughts
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Introduction:
I’m adamada, a med student and an aspiring illustrator.
For those of you familiar with my content produced in the platform, this post tackles more what happens behind the posts I usually make. January 1, 2018 is an important date for me because this was when I started to take my illustration hobby seriously. In the past, I would create some drawings without putting much effort on it unless it served as a contest entry. I took my skills for granted and I’ve been doing that on and off by switching from one hobby to the next.
I regret not starting something I could have been already good at by now. I create illustrations using traditional media and now trying to tackle digital art for more skill growth. I got too comfortable with the regular pen and paper that my skills felt like there was no challenge anymore. I think it was time to practice the real reasons why I wanted to be good at drawing in the first place.
Digital art came first as a fascination after being exposed to the internet. I recalled my first visit to Deviantart when I was 13 years old. Like a kid in a candy shop, I browsed through different forms of art works through with nothing but amazement at each page of the site. From traditional art works, digital paintings, and other visual arts, they all served as an inspiration and foundation for my passion.
The urge to step up my drawing skills became more pronounced as I gave into the allure of videogames. More motivation boosts also came from watching anime and 3D movies. I said to myself, this is the year I’m going to take my illustration hobby to the next level.
When did I discovered my passion for the hobby?
It was serendipity. I had an assignment back in kindergarten that involved drawing animals. I didn’t have the dexterity or imagination for the task. My dad helped me out and when I saw how he managed to copy a polar bear based from a book’s illustration I got fascinated. Since then I started tracing pictures until I reached a point that I could just draw what I see. I discovered I had an affinity for sketching after comparing my works with my classmates.
Things just became natural with sketching. It was that way until I reached high school when I traded the hobby for other hobbies. Reading books stimulated my imagination more. I settled for realizing my imaginations internally and escape from the material world in those moments of good reading.
What made me continue it?
There were illustrations found in the beginning of each chapter in the books I was usually reading. Happy Potter always became the first example that comes to mind when I talk about this. I don’t recall how I started sketching some illustrations related to the books I was reading. But I did do it and I was having fun materializing the scenes I imagined.
I improved my outputs as I continued reading and sketching what I read. It was something to pass the time. It was bliss to have the time to do it.
The demons that came with the passion and sacrifices
It was in highschool when things I realized there were a lot of social adjustments I needed to comply. My set of friends, the peers I get involved with, and people I need to avoid. Being aloof to my books, small talks and social gatherings became a source of dread. Did I mention I frequently had to change addresses and school each year because my father was frequently reassigned to different places as part of his job?
This meant new year, new friends, and new school. My introversion didn’t help me at all in all those adjustments. I had my reading hobby and drawing to keep me occupied during class hours, break time, and study time. Don’t get me wrong, I did make friends, but it’s just that my friends can’t related to the things I know and I found their interests too mundane.
I doodled away during class hours whenever the lessons being taught were read in advanced. The teacher just keeps repeating what I already knew. But what I didn’t know for each moment was how far my imagination could take me. Unfortunately, most of the doodles during childhood and highschool were lost due to floods. I live in the Philippines. Typhoon Frank made a visit and the rest of my creations went history. I did manage to save some works but looking at them now just made me miss those I’ve lost.
During highschool, I learned there were so many talented artists in my level and drawing became a competitive thing in school especially when the most “beautiful drawing” gets the highest points. If I win, I get scrutiny, and if I lost, I still get scrutiny. Always the group member entrusted with the drawing for a project. The output must be good so that the group gets a high grade. No pressure there. I blame an educational system that fosters competition.
A great blow to the self esteem was how my English teacher made this remark to me
“I can draw better than you. I don’t mean to brag but I frequently turn down requests for editiorial cartooning work for a local newspaper. I’ve seen your works and they were not that good.”
She made this remark after apologizing to me in front of the class. The issue was about the sudden changes in the roster for editorial cartooning in a school newspaper competition. She had me trained long hours after school only to replace me with another contestant she fancies.
I became the regional champion for an editorial cartooning competition. The same competition that her candidate also entered. I won. But that still didn’t convince her I was good enough for another contest. I only knew I was not the contestant during the day of registration. She informed me through proxy.
That certainly extinguishes most of the fire I felt for drawing. If I stuck to my books, at least no work could be criticized. I just lost motivation of being told I wasn’t good enough. This was during my highschool years, I know I should know better than to listen to her but I did.
I sacrifice my time to have developed myself further and instead listened to demons in my mind that just prevented me from growing as an artist.
Vanquishing the demons
I never really did manage rid myself of the self defeatist talks that plague my passion. It comes and it goes but I learned to live with it like it was that nagging friend. The comment made by that teacher etched into memory each time I make a drawing. But this time it became a source of motivation and trying to prove a phantom of the past wrong. It no longer matters if what she said was true or not, I will improve and be good at my chosen craft.
I started lessening my time with books and started sketching again. Sketch for hours just for fun. I sketched for hours just to fight that nagging voice that tells me my illustrations are not good enough. I saw improvements each week.
I realized hints of madness when I just kept drawing knowing I got midterms or finals exam the next day. When I have an itch to draw I just draw and it was fun. I was rekindling the inner flame I lost for years. It was madness but it was good. Drawing became an obsession and I wanted to find my style.
The beginning
The subtitle for this part of my journey was intended to highlight that the process is a cyclical thing. There are months when I drop the sketching hobby just to accommodate social obligations. I had a lot of thing going on with my life on a daily basis. I’m already a licensed nurse and now studying medicine. When I get preoccupied with other stuff for a long period of time, I get rusty fast.
It’s not a permanent set back because the habit is cyclical. I just need to find a balance with real life obligations and pursuing the things that I keep falling in love with.
Final thoughts:
Right now, I am fan girling an artist named WLOP and Aoi Ogata. Their digital art styles are what I want to achieve. If I could be half the artist as they are, that would be a mini wish fulfillment. I want to take my illustration skills to the next level and transition to the digital art scene. Making money out of my passion became another source of motivation.
I got plenty of projects I want to start in the real world. Charity, education, and self development but I need money to make the things I want to happen a reality. If I gain the skills worthy enough to be called a professional digital illlustrator, then maybe I can have something to supplement my income. Studying medicine is already taxing for the family. As much as possible, I want to develop some marketable skills to lessen the financial burdens my career progression brings.
I chose the path to becoming a digital illustrator because it’s within the scope of my interests and it’s feasible. I’m an illustrator. I make pretty pictures. If my pretty pictures have value, then let that value bring more value to the things that are dear to me.
art and flair courtesy of @PegasusPhysics
I did several illustrations for books, it's great, I wish I could have been involved in it all my life and make a living from it :)
Painting and illustrating is very fun
I know the feeling of being doing work that you're passionate about. I used to make illustrations and get paid but these were small gigs. No where near professional level illustrations. Just some art projects for kids. Thanks you for visiting my post. It's well appreciated. :)
I said Happy Potter instead of Harry Potter in the post. What was going on inside my head when I wrote this? Please consider that part of my daily bloopers. I hope no Potter fans were offended. ^^
I like your illustrations:) and like your rather detailed and informative post about your hobby!:)
I like it. You really have a hand for drawing and art. I wish I could make such a nice creations.
Ok sorry I'll try to make an effort 😉
I do like your drawings 😃
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STOPif all of these drawings are yours you should just be aware that your teacher was wrong to diss you but you were also wrong to give up
you really have talent and should keep up your work, its cool
Thank you for the encouragement. Yes, all of these works are mine and I only uploaded them first in steemit. This platform is the only site so far that so far that I posted most of my works. The others are in facebook but they are set to private.
Really cool artwork. Like the bleak darkness with a splash of color like hope.
Thank you! I'm into horror though my current skill set need work on giving justice to those themes.
Hey there
I always drop this where my humanoid master, @markangeltrueman is involved..
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Congrats on the curie vote Ada! So well-deserved! You are not just good in illustrating, you are also great at writing! Keep being awesome!
Thank you Ate Maine :D
Na pressure tuloy gumaling. haha
Na hurt ako sa ate 💔😣
Galing! Balato nman jan :D
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Really awesome !
Deviantart became my motivation to create art, too! There are so many good artists out there! haha. Continue what you're doing right now because I know someday you will reach it. You are doing great!
Thanks @hiddenblade I'm checked out your posts too and I can tell we got something in common. Do you have a discord server you frequently go to? Maybe try out steemartists ^^
Your charcoal drawings are awesome, I can't reach that quality level as I'm limited with pencils.
Thank you! Yes, I'm on steemartists as well! Actually, you can also do it using graphite pencils. There are light and dark types of graphite pencil (darkest looks like charcoal lol). You can try them out, too!
I collected 6B up to 6H pencils and still only use 4 pencils from those ranges. You're better at gauging values and contrast. I transitioned too early without the fundamentals and now I'm still stuck learning them in the digital landscape. What's your discord name? I hold the same name there.
hiddenblade is also my username in discord :D It's never too late, though. Just like me, I went to art school, went through techniques and stuff but I wasn't able to do it on full force. I learned a lot, but I think if I have enough time (studying art without those minor subjects that I don't care about haha) then I believe I would be able to practice more. Right now since I just graduated, I am going back to basics even if I already know how to do paintings and stuff. Basics are really important and you will have a hard time achieving your goal in drawing/painting if you transitioned too early. Take it slow and someday you'll be able to achieve it.
Wait! Wut!? You're a girl, or my mind went completely haywire?
@adamada my friend, you just made a vely vely intelesting post!
You are amazing at this man! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise!
Thank you for this vely intelesting comment @guri-guri coming from an intelesting person, I am honored.