I don't mean to sound like I'm complaining - I actually am really happy with my little bit of interaction, pathetic or not. I know a handful of people read my ramblings, and that makes me really happy. I also just got an (unpaid) position on a local blog that I never would have had the balls to apply for if I hadnt developed a body of work here the last few months.
I can imagine where you are at. No one wants to be stagnant. I hope you do break through that wall. You are really unique - you deserve it.
I don't like to complain either, and at the same time, I like to be honest with myself; I know what I deserve. I don't deserve more than anyone else, but I don't feel as if deserve to be going backwards. I blame myself, and that's that.