I think you are trying to relay the messages that the voices are telling you repeatedly.
The 3 represents a trilemma that you have been facing. The @ symbol is letting you know that the time to act is now. The usage of the smudge tool indicates your desire to smear the true colors of your pain and obfuscate the nature of your destiny from your readers.
You're like the Dr. Phil of the digital art blog scene. That was deep. I might have to actually think about what you said.
I done healed you. HOW BOW DAH?