I hope you can get things sorted out. You might want to check into free legal aid. Most states have legal aid that you can at least go in and get some basis of how to mount your defense. Don't pay some lawyer $300 / hour. NEVER fully trust a lawyer. Also remember Judges are just lawyers how decided to try to be a judge. They can't be trusted either.
Good luck
Yeah I make too much money to qualify for legal aid or a public defender and after two times in court already and not even being allowed to speak I have learned that Judges in Chicago HATE "jail house lawyers" or anyone trying to "represent themselves". If I go to court again without a lawyer I will almost certainly get convicted, go to prison and have a felony record.
Yeah the run a racket. They act like if you represent yourself that you didn't go through the proper steps to be in their dumb club. It is ridiculous. I had a frivilous lawsuit filed against me in Texas so I represented myself Pro Se and then filed a lawsuit against the morons in Arizona and even added the Lawyer who was representing the scammers and he tried to say I couldn't do that. I said...... I just did.....you can either represent yourself here in Arizona or hire an Arizona lawyer because you aren't licensed to practice law as a lawyer here.
I hope you can get some help from a reasonable lawyer. No one would help me with my situation when I had it and I had to spend all my time studying legal procedure in Texas and Arizona. It wasn't fun.