I went to Yaoshan for the first time, and his home was a bit deserted. His father went out to work every morning, and only Yao’s mother was at home. She sat in the chair, looked at us smiling, quiet, and her face was white.
When we were immersed in the fun of playing marbles, suddenly, the chair fell to the ground, and a loud noise was heard in the empty room.
Yao Shan suddenly bounced off the ground and ran to the woman who was twitching on the ground. Yaoshan's mother lay on the ground in a strange posture, like a chopping board in a zombie piece. Her fingers were twisted and deformed, and the drowning water came out from the corner of her mouth, and the throat made a strange sound.
Yao Shan untied his belt and stuffed it into his mother's tight mouth. I was scared to escape to my room and lock the door, not forgetting to breathe.
After that, Yaoshan did not come to school for a long time. I couldn't help but call him in the back window. He came out from the door and looked pale.
I asked him why he didn't come to school. He said that he would take care of his mother. Then he said that his mother was only ill, and he would not eat a child or be a madman. After that, the eleven-year-old boy’s eyes were red.
Because of poverty, Yaoshan’s mother did not receive good treatment. After that time, the number of her onset increased. In order to prevent her from biting off her tongue at home, Yaoshan’s mother went to work with his father. Once the disease occurs, Yao Shan will miss the class and go home to take care of her.
Yao Shan has never complained before me and is still trying to find all kinds of remedies. He stubbornly believes that as long as it is a disease, there is always the possibility of recovery.
two
In 2010, Yao Shan was 18 years old and was a high school student. A heavy rain washed away the old roof of his house, and the rotten scorpion smashed the Yaoshan parents who were leaking on the third floor.
In the early morning, the team walked along the Bali River to Luohan Mountain. Yao Shan didn't cry. He was wearing a white blouse and was walking in front of the team.
The "tofu rice" (the funeral banquet of the folks in Jiangsu and Zhejiang) ended, and the women stayed to clean up the aftermath. The men sneaked into the air and talked about it.
Yaoshan sat on the scorpion that broke at the door, sucked the last cigarette and said, "The house has to be repaired."
But the three-day funeral has almost exhausted all the savings of a poor family.
Yaoshan sealed the piece of furniture with tarpaulin, except that a few pieces of clothing were buried with the coffin, and the rest were burnt at the door. The smoke generated by incomplete combustion attracted the neighbor's unhappiness, and I was somewhat worried that he would have a dispute with people. But Yaoshan just picked up the big pot on the side and covered the weak fire in the brazier.
I asked: "Are you not angry?"
He said: "This is just a form, there is no need to be true... Parents are in the sky, knowing that I have burned clothes for them."
The house has become a dangerous building and it is not suitable for a long time. After the first seven days, Yao Shan was taken by his uncle to the house on the other side of the river. He is quite complaining about this. There are two idle sons in the family, and suddenly there is more mouth to eat. The arrival of Yaoshan has become an irreconcilable contradiction in this family.
Yao Shan tried to integrate into it, feeding pigs, sun drying, and swimming water (a way of fishing) throughout the summer. Sometimes I pick two miles to go to the market to sell fish. I don’t want to take the car. Most of the money I earned was given to him.
During that time, Yaoshan’s two cousins wanted to buy a car. After learning that Yao Shan had a sum of money left by his father, he tried to convince Yao Shan to come out and fund two brothers. But Yao Shan refused.
That day his voice was heard from the other side of the river: "Look at the white-eyed wolf you brought back, no conscience..." Yaoshan's uncle is honest and honest, sitting on the side and not speaking.
Because of this incident, Yaoshan’s dissatisfaction moved from the dark to the countertop, and Yaoshan dumped the pig food with such a small matter. She could also squat from the front of the house to the river. Later, almost all the women in the village were swearing behind the scenes, saying that Yaoshan was a ungrateful, lazy person. Yaoshan heard it and did not argue, just walked away silently.
During that time, Yao Shan often ran back and sat for an afternoon at the door of the old house without a roof. Until his cursing came from the other side of the river, he patted his butt and got up and left a cigarette butt.
One day, Yao Shan suddenly came to me and said that he was going to be a soldier. He had already experienced it and went to Tibet. In his opinion, it is impossible for his achievements to be admitted to college. Being a soldier may be a good way out.
On the morning of departure, he waited on the bridge for a while, and the lights of his uncle's house did not light up.
"When two years of soldiers gave a lot of money," he handed me a cigarette. "It's almost enough to repair the house."
"When the soldiers are for this?"
"Yes, not all." Yaoshan took a sip of cigarettes. "I don't want to go through the days."
Send Yaoshan to the village entrance, I stand in the same place.
He is far away.
three
In the third year of Yaoshan's enlistment, a message was posted on the signboard of the village entrance. It said: Comrade Yao Shan was honored for his outstanding performance. In the lower right corner is the party committee chapter of the company where Yao Shan is located.
That day, Yaoshan called me and asked me if I had a good report. The voice was a little hoarse and weak. The phone call was the one he had the most in two years.
In the army, Yaoshan has few words and is tenacious. The recruits became the deputy squad leader of Lianli in the second year. When I was a soldier, I couldn’t eat enough. My comrades would give him a lot of snacks and specialties from home, even though he never received the parcel. When the recruits were injured in training, Yao Shan could not walk around and the company commander personally sent the meal to the barracks.
For the first time in his life, Yao Shan felt that he did not have to suffer from strange eyes. When he could not continue, there were people around him encouraging each other. He has a feeling of home.
Finally, he said: "A second-class function gives me a job when I am retired."
The big red flower on the happy newspaper turned yellow and finally turned white. Before the winter, Yaoshan was retired.
I was waiting for him at the station that day. He came down from the bus and was black and strong. Only the sleeve on the right was blown by the wind and drifted away. He escaped my wrong eyes and said, "Go, go to the river and sit."
After the two cigarettes were exhausted, Yao Shan opened his mouth.
On the day of the accident, the troops marched along the Tibetan roads, and the mountains rolled down the rocks, so they could not hide. He subconsciously guarded his comrades around him, and his right arm was smashed. After the medical guards were simply bandaged, the company commander ran for a long time on the mountain road at an altitude of several kilometers before stopping a military vehicle.
Yao Shan returned to his life, but failed to keep his right arm.
The company commander asked him if he wanted to extend his service. Yaoshan chose to retire despite his disappointment. He said that he broke his hand and left the army to waste resources.
Compared with those comrades who have not returned, Yao Shan is lucky to recognize himself. As a disabled soldier retired, the state will also arrange work. This time, when I came back to repair the house, he didn't want to drag it anymore. He wants to have a home.
Although Yaoshan said it was easy, the work arrangement was not as easy as imagined.
At that time, there was no concept of the Department of Veterans Affairs. The veterans were more like a hot potato in the eyes of local government departments. No one would be happy to pick them up. Yao Shan is a disabled soldier. The state has laws and regulations. The Civil Affairs Bureau has indicated that he will arrange for him to enter the city management.
When Yao Shan talked about his work, he couldn’t hide his joy. He could enter the system and be considered an iron rice bowl.
But no one knows why, his position has been replaced.
The staff said that it takes a period of time to confirm that Yaoshan can be qualified for the job. Before that, only temporary labor contracts can be signed. Yaoshan complained that the answer was that he was disabled.
"Temporary workers are temporary workers, and they can always turn positive." Although Yaoshan is helpless, there is no shortage of expectations.
I feel that Yao Shan has changed. He is no longer used to solving things with his fists. He began to accept. "The Civil Affairs Bureau's statement is not unreasonable. I went to find it myself. Maybe even the security work could not be found." He said.
As for who replaced him, Yao Shan did not go into the bottom. That person later became the top superior of Yaoshan.
Yao Shan works in the county, and sometimes comes back for a day or two on weekends. His uncle family has become very polite since he returned from the army. They know that Yaoshan was assigned to the government unit. The people in the village began to say, "I will find you to help you in the future." Let them feel that they have a face.
Yaoshan is complaining to me most of the time that the work is too busy, and the repair of the house has to be delayed. The work of urban management is not good at all, but when there is a little conflict, public opinion always stands at the other side of the violators.
But in those days, Yao Shan’s face always smiled.
four
Later, for a while, Yaoshan never came back, and the phone could not get through. The rumors are as fast as the wind blowing across the village.
Some people say that Yaoshan was arrested in the city. Some people say that Yaoshan has seriously injured people. The most specific way is that Yao Shan interrupted the leg of the vendor who refused to make a living tool, and used it to fold. Mazza.
Day after day life makes people numb, whether in the field or in the river, people encounter a few words about rumors. Yao Shan’s embarrassment is also among them. A model of a victim is accused of Yao Shan. He said that he had known that Xunzi was such a person and he adopted him. With the comfort of the women, she walked away with satisfaction.
Finally, Yaoshan is back.
He sat at the door of the house that had broken three years ago and turned to see me, and the tears fell.
His superior assaulted the dealer caused a broken leg bone and was reported. I went up and investigated, but pushed him up. At the time of the incident, Yao Shan tried to stop, but was warned not to do anything. The scene was almost out of control, Yaoshan forced to help, and subdued the superior who beat him. "I stunned him, and he woke up to kill me."
Later, Yao Shan knew that the superior was the son of the captain. On the day when the investigation team came, the DV with the video material was inexplicably broken. Everyone pointed their finger at Yao Shan, including the trader who was interrupted. Because there is no substantial evidence, things will eventually be lost.
Only the urban management team soon lifted Yaoshan’s temporary contract.
Yaoshan smiled bitterly. "When the situation I submitted was returned, the seal was not removed." He also reported the case, but the police station did not accept such unsubstantiated cases.
He said: "I don't understand why the world is like this."
The next day, Yaoshan left.
After more than two years, Yaoshan did not return to the village. The matter about him gradually subsided, people's lives returned to normal, and no one cares where he went.
Until the winter of 16 years, I heard that I was in the county fire squadron, Yaoshan's engineering team happened to have a project nearby, and he called me. We sat in the restaurant in the urban-rural joint area to drink, the weather was gloomy and cold, and the clouds of the big regiment swelled in the sky, like a heavy snow.
Yao Shan said that he is going home.
In the past two years, he has changed a lot of work, but he has not been able to do it because of his disability. There was a time to be a security guard and the owner complained about the damage. Now he can only do half the work of ordinary workers.
He often dreams of his parents and the company commander who saved his life. When he woke up, he told himself to live well.
In the small shop on the construction site, Yao Shan, who often went to buy cigarettes, met the salesperson Chen Hao. Every time Yaoshan went to the store, Chen Hao always gave Yao Shan some more food. Over time, the two became familiar. In the 15th Spring Festival, Yaoshan did not return to the village, and was surprised to find that Chen Hao also stayed in the store. When asked, I know that Chen Hao is also a person without a family.
They are together like this.
Yao Shan said to me: "I decided to take the aunt back to the village and fix the home."