See? People got an entirely wrong perception of me, then when you have that initial interpretation of someone, anything else just feeds into that image. I can't help it if someone perceives me as a money groggy person and continues to get that impersonation because it is simply confirmed bias.
I did reach out to a few people and got to know them quite well or at least somewhat well and I love them a lot. @Moeknows and (I would have to search through my resteems to find the others but one of them always posts a sketch of himself in comments. He was dope) but I never felt the server was a good place to do this. It was a lot easier to find people on the platform.
I believe this is because of something you mentioned. The family is getting too big. This is just a facet of social behavior. If things get too big, then people that aren't "basic" or aren't bubbly and the common denominator, i.e. people with abrasive personalities like myself have a harder time to fit in and we get shoved to the wall.
I felt the best time for the #Alliance was when we had different syndicates. Then, it was small enough in each server to actually get to know people but as soon as we all converged into one main one, things started to distance for me.