Just wanted to give a hug 🤗
Relationship is a hard work for sure. In marriage I learned of compromising a lot, because you love the other person and want to make it work. It is not easy and you aren't the only one. I am the same, wanting what you want. Hang in there, but if it's becoming toxic, you aren't happy, there should be a way out.
Cheers
Ty I do welcome hugs!