Christianity is a very personal thing my friend, and I think that is why everyone has a little something different to say about it.
Once you have Jesus so many things will become obvious to you, a personal relationship with our Lord Jesus makes everything much easier to bear in this world.
“This then is the message which we have heard of him, and declare unto you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all.” - 1 John 1:5
Praying for you my Brother.