I don't know what is wrong with me honestly. I am a Muslim. I feel empty.
I am abandoned by those whom I call family. Made mistakes and dropped out of school along the way. Been jumping from one friends house to the other.
I have been calling to my creator (if any) to alleviate my situation.
I only want to feel sane, feeling numb as I write.
No empathy, no remorse, no sense of happiness to exciting things.
What have I done wrong to deserve all this.
For the first time in my life grey hair has started coming out of my head at age 25.
I spent hours without knowing what exactly I am doing, or where I am, drifting into what I can't explain.
For the first time I understand why some people embrace atheism.
I have thought of suicide but too weak to even carry it out.
I silently pray for death yet here I remain in this forsaken world.
I don't even have a place I call home now, talkless of purpose.
I first posted this on this site but people there didn't take it serious.
Been feeding with friends help and some of the little tasks online for cash like blogging here.
If you have anything soothing for me to read, on Christianity, suicide and life please post it.
I need help. If Christianity is it, then so be it.
All I can tell you is that Jesus is the only One who ever transformed me.
I made that video once when a lot of people were talking about how "great" I was. Basically, I say that I know how wretched I was, and the only reason that anyone would like who I am now is that Jesus forever changed me.
Thanks @papa-pepper. I see genuine turnaround in your composure and I believe I'll have and experience that. Find that inner peace and be useful to myself and others likewise God-fearing. I have started talks with a local priest in my village here and he has gave me some materials and open door for me to go to him anytime I have a question beside the sessions we've agreed to meet each Thursday.
I believe one day I'll be able to say I haven't always been like this and there's a reason and all you guys will be part of the reason. Thanks.
Hey brother don't feel empty
as a brother i suggest you please read holy book Quran with translate in your language one time inshaallah you will get everything from holy book Quraandon't feel weakness and empty your very strong
May allah give you peace.
I believe you are at a turning point in life. Something has caused you to question your faith and now you are seeking another alternative. Christianity is that solution.
It is more than a religion. You don't need to work your way into heaven or do certain things. All you need to do is believe in Jesus and that He is more than a profit. You must believe that He is your savior.
If you are interested, The Case For Christ is an amazing story you would enjoy. There is a book and a movie. It is about a man who questioned everything and came up with a solution that resulted in Christianity.
I'd be happy to communicate more with you. Please comment on my posts if you have any other questions. The Word of God is alive and active. It is going to do great work in you.
Okay, will keep you posted. Thanks.
That's great!
Here is an interesting short video, check it out!
Thanks @daveks. I appreciate it.
Hi @oladokun, I feel for you my friend. I want to share with you the story of my friend @msg768. You can read his story here. Have a read. I think he has experienced similar things as you, with the emptiness and pain, and coming from a Muslim background. @msg768 is also on Steemit.
Thanks @nextgen622. I read his story and I am happy for him. And he's lucky to have went to Australia a more liberal society than his. And it is the second problem and fear here. The stigma and persecution from people is what is stopping people from opening up.
Thanks.
Yes true, fear of persecution and stigma is what holds some back, but God is real and I can honestly say that Jesus is worth it! Jesus has completely transformed my life and given me hope and purpose. I will be praying for you my friend.
Thanks so much.
Thanks so much.
I'm sorry you are going through this...I don't have the answers for you because I am a christian who is struggling as well. All I can say is keep seeking and don't give up. I will resteem your post though, and hopefully someone with more answers can help you. Much love.❤
Thanks. I appreciate your kind words.
Hi, @oladokun. May I suggest that you go to church nearest to you, and talk to a priest about it.
You might also want to post here @steemchurch, and maybe they can help you.
And may God Guide you towards the peace of mind, heart, and soul that you seek.
Thank you. I've tag them. And about visiting a priest nearby, I'll love to though fear the outcome, persecution and all. I hope anyone I meet physically would be open and encouraging as you guys here. Thanks
Dear @oladokun,
I have just posted a teaching from the New Testament Book of Hebrews that I believe will help you in your quest to fill the emptiness that you are feeling and start you on your journey to mental, emotional and spiritual healing.
HOW TO RECEIVE FORGIVENESS OF SINS AND THE PROMISE OF HEAVEN
https://steemit.com/christianity/@lastdays/how-to-receive-forgiveness-of-sins-and-the-promise-of-heaven
Salaam Alaikum (peace be upon you), Steven @lastdays
Here are a number of testimonies by Muslims who became Christians
http://www.answering-islam.org/Testimonies/index.html
Sorry testimonies like this I don't believe can solve or fill the void in me. I mean if you read then what after that?
Hahahah
You don't know anything about islam there are million people everyday accepting islam brother
Hey there. I was raised Muslim as well. I used to wanna take my own life too. All I can tell you is that life is difficult and there's not an easy way out. Suicide isn't the solution either because you don't really know what awaits you after death, do you? Don't look for answers in others because humans are fallible and you're a human too. If you want answers, go to God directly but before you do that, make sure you're ready to hear what God has to say. All the best.
Thanks bro. I am still and looking inwardly I may say. The suicide thoughts are subsiding though I have to admit I still feel like why don't a fast moving car just jam me like that so it'll seem all natural and stuff.
Hey bro , I'm seeing this now . You know something , I have been in you similar situation. I don't know how similar it is though. But I have been in a situation where I even thought about suicide and ending it all too.
Mostly cause Everytime in my house there was a fight , everyone used to blame me . And even for my parents fighting , and everything , and it just saddened me alot. And in 2016 March 2 my parents were like ,we are getting divorced and all that. Oh my god bro , you know I cried straight for two three days. And when I call home I can't even show my crying face. Since I had to be strong for them. You know my chest was paining from all that crying and pain that , that day I thought why don't I end it. Then my sisters face came to my mind . That day , I really hated god , I really did . I'm not going to lie to you.
Because most of my life , I have been crying , cause first I was with my grandparents and away from my parents , so when I went to my parents , I didn't know how to show them my love. Which created a big gap between my mom and me , cause she thought I didn't like her. And we used to have alot of problems and I'm so bad at fighting so I'll just sit and cry , that's it.
So that day in 2016 was too much for me to handle. Then I stopped going to church. Yeah, I did , but secretly deep within I prayed to God , I asked him , to make them be together and that everything be okay again. At last they became okay. Then me I lost that connection with god , you know. I didn't know what to do. I had this big hole , I tried to fill it with other people , but nothing was enough for me. I almost even got a boyfriend , because I was revelling against my parents and God. Thank God I didn't.
Then , I was living my normal boring life , that's when Suddenly my sister is becoming really sick , we had to take her to the emergency and all. And I couldn't take it. I cried and cried and asked god to help. Cause that's all that I was able to do. And that was the time , when I let god back into my life. Things were all falling apart , our house back home , was in a case and my grandpa didn't tell us , so basically we are almost homeless. Then my mom started getting her bleeding disorder again and dad was sick too. Everything was just falling apart and the only person who had to give them all strength and support was me. And I was the weakest , I was crying most of the day , I was praying and asking God to intervene , and when I Skype home , I smile and give them hope and encouragement. I stopped smiling , before I used to love taking pics but I stopped , I was in my own mind.
But from then , I started believing .
Because God has said , if you believe without doubting , he shall work wonders in our life!!
So I began to stop worrying and started believing. And as I started believing , my stress level decreased a bit , and it's God who showed me opportunities like steemit , through my friend. And it's God who is the reason I'm alive today.
But I'm not against any other religions , so I won't say anything other religion is wrong , mostly cause my dad is RC Roman Catholic and mom is a Protestant , penticost haha even though them both Christians it's very opposite. So I know what it is like when someone says bad about a church or anything so I won't.
What I would say is , try praying and asking God for help . For me reading Bible helped alot , cause sometimes I get verses which I feel are really directed towards me.
Be strong and courageous , don't be afraid or Scared of them , for Yahweh your God himself is who goes with you . He will never leave you nor forsake you!
God bless you dear brother. I'm sorry I didn't see sooner. Next time I'll check up on you , I hope you feel better soon. God is with you. Don't loose hope okay. And I feel , all our problems will not go on forever , I believe our good days are coming .
And about the stress , hm try listening to some Hillsong or Jesus culture or something soothing.
Thank you very much @Ashley4u. For once I have gotten someone who truly what it feels like . I swear your story depicts exactly how I feel. There was even moments walking by the roadside I pray silently for a car to hit me so I can die.
I still feel if I am dead my troubles will be over but then who knows what is on the other side?
I am talking with a priest here and he's invited me for tomorrow, going, stepping into a church for the first time tomorrow.
Are you a Nigerian too?
Oh brother , that's good , everything will be better soon , I know ,I will be praying for you too okay , God bless you , I'm an Indian 😊
God bless you too. Thanks.
Hello, I am very truly sorry that you're going through such a hard time. I know you're looking for answers but I feel sometimes there are no answers. I know you feel empty and alone but I don't really think you are. It will get better I promise. I know you say when will it get better but none of us can answer that. You'll look back one day and remember the struggle that you're feeling now and be so proud that you got through it. Hang in there A lot of times things work themselves out.
There are no answers? Are we then in this world all alone?
Please clarify.....
I dont think we are in this world alone and I dont think you are alone in this world either. I think we're looking for answers for why things happen to us someone to blame Maybe but I don't think there's an answer for why things happen. I think every day you have to just keep looking to the positive and things in your life will fall into place. I always tell my daughters be the best person you can be everyday that's all you can do.
Okay. Thanks
@oladokun... I have a few very close Muslim friends from different parts of the world who have come to the saving Grace of the Lord Jesus Christ.
Continue to cry out to Him, He cares and loves you so much.
May I also suggest reading posts from @seekgod. It's a daily devotional and it's pretty helpful. Blessings to you my friend.
Mel @coachmelleow
Thanks
We are vulnerable people to bad decisions in this life as such I tell you in advance that the only alternative is God gives us life and abundance tranquility and more than all other things gives us peace, I invite you to accept Jesus as your only and enough savior and truthful that your life will change
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My brother, all you need is to believe in Jesus, accept Him completely as your Lord and Savior, I assured you that He will take absolute control of your life.
Thanks
All I can say is that God love all of us, He loved us so much that He gave His only Son, Jesus Christ to die for our sins so that we can live for all eternity. Read the Bible, God will guide you.
I feel so proud now to be a member of this fantastic Christian community here on steemit. Look how many Christians came forward and encouraged you. Get a Bible and read the New Testament. God will reveal himself to you and you will experience that Jesus Christ is real. Your life is very valuable. We all care for you. Are you on discord?
Yes I am on discord.
Christianity is a very personal thing my friend, and I think that is why everyone has a little something different to say about it.
Once you have Jesus so many things will become obvious to you, a personal relationship with our Lord Jesus makes everything much easier to bear in this world.
“This then is the message which we have heard of him, and declare unto you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all.” - 1 John 1:5
Praying for you my Brother.
I am ready to die for Jesus Christ for He has done so already for us all.
https://steemit.com/poetry/@verbal-d/life-and-death-haikus-ready-for-destruction-original-poem
I pray you find peace and truth and light seeking in the love of Christ and He shall guide you back to the peacefulness and soothing surety that is lacking in this cold dark world.
I would be nothing without God, Jesus Christ. I cannot deny His existence and I have physically and spiritually battled demonic forces in the very literal sense, only winning because of the authority of Jesus Christ's powerful and holy name.
Praying for you.