Thanks @papa-pepper. I see genuine turnaround in your composure and I believe I'll have and experience that. Find that inner peace and be useful to myself and others likewise God-fearing. I have started talks with a local priest in my village here and he has gave me some materials and open door for me to go to him anytime I have a question beside the sessions we've agreed to meet each Thursday.
I believe one day I'll be able to say I haven't always been like this and there's a reason and all you guys will be part of the reason. Thanks.
Hey brother don't feel empty
as a brother i suggest you please read holy book Quran with translate in your language one time inshaallah you will get everything from holy book Quraandon't feel weakness and empty your very strong
May allah give you peace.