后来,我瞒着所有人爱了你很久很久|Later, I loved you for so long and without telling everyone

in #cn7 years ago


你知道吗?我昨晚又梦到你了,梦中的你一如既往地帅气,你背对着我,坐在那家我们常去的咖啡馆常坐的位置,我进门径直朝着那个位置走去,却看到了你,我就愣在那儿停顿了好久,然后你转过头来看到了我,你朝我笑,我鼓起勇气试着向你走近,却始终走不到那个位置,眼睁睁地看着你近在咫尺,却偏偏难以靠近,最后直到你消失不见。
do you know?I dreamed about you again last night, and you were as handsome as ever, with your back to me sitting in the usual cafe where we used to go, and I walked straight in that position and lookedWhen I reach you, I froze there for a long time, then you turn around and saw me, you smile at me, I courageously tried to approached you, but never walked to that position, I watched youClose at hand, but why difficult to close, and finally until you disappear.

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      我猛然醒来,睁眼,漆黑,宁静,我放空了几秒,然后才终于认清你已经离开我的事实。是啊,已经离开了。

都说,梦中梦到的人,是因为心底觉得离得好远,所以我才会想要在梦中再见见你,可是,在梦中你也离得我好远,我怎么也靠不近你。
I suddenly woke up, eyes open, dark, quiet, I vent for a few seconds before I finally realized you had left me.Yeah, it's goneEveryone who dreamed in a dream was because my heart felt far away, so I would want to see you again in a dream. However, you are far from me in a dream. How can I rely on it?Near you

也许是在用这种方式告诉我,分开了就不要怀抱希望,现实,梦中都不能。

我们在一起时,身边的朋友都知道,爱你,是他们都知道的事情,后来分开,只有少部分人知道,可是没有人知道我还爱你,这是属于我一个人的秘密。
Perhaps this is the way to tell me that if you do not want to be separated, do not be realistic or dream.When we were together, my friends all knew and loved you, they all knew. Later, they were separated and only a few people knew, but no one knew that I still loved you. This is my personal secret.

后来的我一直单身,有时候朋友开玩笑说“你是不是还没有忘掉他”我说“怎么可能,我这么拿的起放的下的人,早忘了。”回答的干脆利落,以至于他们都信了,说的多了,连我都几乎信了。

可是,那为何会在听到你的名字时心头一震,为何会在不经意间想起你的时候心底隐隐难受,为何会在街上看到一个和你相似的背影心脏漏停一秒,为何总是会入我的梦,又为何对后来身边出现的男生都无感,直至今日,你依然是我拒绝别人的理由。我没有在等你,却还是喜欢不上别人。
Later, I have been single, and sometimes friends joked that "you have not forgotten him," I said, "how could I get so put up under the people, forgotten." Answer simply neat, so that theyHave believed, said more, even I almost believe it.Why, then, when I heard your name, I was startled. Why did I feel sad when I remembered you inadvertently? Why did you see a similar shadow in the street?It is my dream to enter, and why I do not feel any sense of what happens to the boys who appear next to me. Until today, you are still the reason I refuse others.I'm not waiting for you, but still do not like others.
会偷偷地跑到你的空间,因为当时在一起的时候微信还没有如此盛行,那时候会要求你弄成情侣头像,关联qq号,设置成情侣空间,有空了就一直在你空间留言,后来我们的qq不再关联,你也换了头像,换了空间装扮,清空了所有留言。我偷偷地溜进去转了一圈,然后默默地删除访问记录。想知道你的消息,又怕你知道我还在惦记。
Will secretly ran into your space, because at that time WeChat has not yet so popular, then you will be asked to make a couple avatar, associated qq number, set into a couple space, free space has been in your space message,Later, we qq no longer associated, you also changed the avatar, changed the space dress up, empty all the messages.I slipped into the circle and silently deleted the record of the visit.Want to know your news, afraid you know I still remember.
会偷偷地跑到你的城市,在我们经常走过的那条小路转转,呼吸着这座城市的空气,吹着和你一样的风,算不算相拥?

也会一个人背着包到处旅行,记得和你说过很多想要去的地方,你总说等咱有钱了,想去哪去哪,你总说等有机会了,去很多地方。可是直到分开还是没有去过任何一个地方,我一个人走走停停,看一起说过的风景,而你在哪里?
Will secretly go to your city, in the road we often walk around, breathe the city's air, blowing like you, the wind, count it?Will also be a person carrying packages travel around, I remember and told you a lot of places you want to go, you always say that we have money, where to go, you always say that there is a chance, go to many places.But until I have not been to any place or separated, I stop and go alone to see the scenery together, and where are you?
在一起两年的光景,用了三年的时间念念不忘,回忆比经历还要长,该说自己太痴情还是太想不开呢?

其实有时候我们的内心远远没有表面那么潇洒,背影一转身就可以,而心里的空缺要怎样去填平?离开后的日子我瞒着所有人爱了你好久好久,我想这应该是我说分手的代价吧。但是该偿还的三年时光已经够了吧,剩下的我只想活给自己看。
With two years of the situation, spent three years of time never forget, memories are even longer than the experience, that they too infatuated or too hard to do?In fact, sometimes our hearts are far less superficial, the back of a turn can be, but how to fill in the heart of the vacancy?I left the day without my knowledge of everyone love a long, long time, I think this should be the price of breaking up I say it.But the three years of repayment have been enough of it, and the rest I just want to live to see.
以前总希望你能来,会突然站在我的面前,会给我打电话让我到楼下给我惊喜,会轻轻地说一句“别来无恙”可是现在我不想要了,那些无处安放的情感就让它各自归位,你别来,我一个人也无恙。
I used to always want you to come and I will suddenly stand in front of me and will call me downstairs to give me a surprise, will gently say "do nothing else" But now I do not want, those nowherePlaced emotional let it go their own place, you do not come, I am unharmed.