You cant blame yourself on it bro. People have their own responsibilities, even if they are minors.
When I was still living in Holland these fabricated synthetic drugs were really trending at that moment. Almost for nearly nothing you can buy stuff online and test it out.
Last year I was talking to a friend about bitcoins (who was totally not into investing or crypto at that moment) and all of a sudden he said: 'yeah I have a bitcoin wallet actually..for mail orders back in the days..'
We just dont know. I understand you feel like suck though. But as they say in the 'banking on bitcoin' docu: Drugs are also bought with cash...should we throw out all cash??