lol, what I'll say will make you laugh.
I feel guilty that I was a pawn and believed them when they talked about 'conspiracy theories' and other such and refused to listen...until I awoke just a few years ago.
Perhaps it is that guilt and perhaps it also is that I want to see that the globalists have totally failed and they are being punished...
I keep telling myself I must not die - I must live until that day...however long it takes.
At least it means that old age has not robbed me of the ability to dream.