Wow, this is very hard to hear.
I am very sorry for what happened to you this year, I know that when a person you love leaves, there is a huge gap because that person promised to love you forever, so it hurts more.
But something that can help you is to take some time to recover, so that you will be strong again.
I hope you have a good day.
Thank you, @fabian98! Yes, I give myself time to calm down and I know, it'll go away someday.
:)