Greetings again Piotr,
WTF? What do you mean by that? I'm sorry to hear that you had such an awful experience.
He was an abusive man who was never able to see (or accept/come to terms) what he did to two families, and still continues his denial as a lonely old man with no one. I forgave him and tried to be there for him in old age, but some people just don't have enough courage to change I guess.
I'm sorry to hear about your experience as well. I would never want to hurt my father, that is why I needed to close that door forever, because he hurt allot of people and couldn't even man up and accept responsibility for it. He still has an aggressive nature, and the military did something to me that made me very dangerous under certain circumstances. I don't want to encumber a life sentence for someone like that, no one for that matter.
I am open to checking out your mission statement email. Feel free to send it to [email protected]
Best regards,
@futuremind
PS. Nice to hear you're feeling better friend :)
Dear @futuremind
Thank you for sharing your experience with me.
meaning? what do you think changed inside you?
ps. I'm not sure if I ever told you that I used to be a boxer and professional boxing coach. So I'm also very aware of my own skills and I'm avoiding confrontations at all cost.
I've send you an email already. Hope it wont end up in your spam box.
Cheers
Piotr
Well, I enlisted in the Marine Corps at the age of 18, (to escape the environment I was in.) and was trained in various hand to hand combat techniques. I'm not sure why, but I was chosen to partake in a few "specialized" training programs while I was enlisted. Military police training, and advanced MCMAP were two programs where I learned intuitively how to render a person unconscious or disabled very quickly through various methods, (pressure points, blood/oxygen restriction, ect.)
For the longest time I did not even remember some of the training I went through. Maybe repression, or drug use, I don't know, but I consciously forgot allot. I was in a couple of volatile situations over the years, and this stuff activated like some muscle memory, and when it was over, I was in shock with what had happened, because I had no idea what I was capable of. It was a scene like you described, where someone almost died.
Understanding that you have that capability, and not wanting to hurt others, it makes sense to want to avoid confrontation I think.
PS. I'm not much of a sports fan, with the exception of boxing and MMA. I was a fan of boxing at a young age and would watch HBO Boxing After Dark. I'll check out the email :)
Cheers,
@futuremind