Hey man i have been following you for a while now and i feel you. While i dont have the same amount of money invested as you have, it's a lot for me. When i see all these coins as bitcoin, litecoin, dash and a few others i cant help but feeling a bit down when i see our beloved steem not moving anywhere and if it does it falls quickly again.
Hopefully 2018 will be a great year for the steem blockchain and people will start to see it's true potential. I am sticking with my 5k SP and will keep adding every spare penny i got.