If I try to kill it, and I definitely have, I only end up killing myself.
It would be such a shame if you did. You're a very talented man :) And while I get where the reproach is coming from, I can't agree. First, because I know you're capable of producing wonderful things. Second, because I do believe you deserve some time to grow and nurture your soul. If you don't, it starves and that affects your relationship with anyone. We weren't put on this earth to just pay bills and die ;)
I didn't know you had a son, that is so wonderful! how old is he?
I'm really happy to hear he's a creative soul too. The world needs more of those :) It's where our hope lies, as a species, in this power to make beautiful things.
Because in some part of me, try as I might, I still think of it as a curse.
I get it, it's not dramatic, it's true. I've been thinking a bit about that lately and while I prefer not to dwell too much on it (what would be the point? Not like I'm gonna stop, is it?), I do fear that it's more powerful than I know or like to think. But I suppose it's the price you have to pay to the muse. If it was easy, everyone would be at it.
Which is why I feel so very passionate about supporting other creatives in any way I can.
You're one of the most supportive people I know, both on and off Steem. I told you, I think, I have a comment of yours about one of my stories written down in a diary of things I really like. :) That's an excellent thing. So many become closed and spiteful towards other creatives, like it's a competition. It's not, but not everyone sees that. You do and that's priceless :)
Thank you! Really good to hear from you, my dear friend! <3