I'll help you out.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
I think there is a lot of pressure on you, because somewhere in your head, you already know how great you're going to be. And you're not sure if you are ready for it. Don't worry about it. You have tons of time. And you are up for it. Once you've clicked, you'll be unstoppable. You already are, you just don't know. Spencer knows, most of your followers know. First you have to decide what you really want, which you can't always answer in a minute/day/week.
Don't worry too much. Enjoy a little more. Do it for love. Not for expectations.
I am at a loss for words. All I can say is Thank You.
No thanks. Just happy to be a part of your journey 👍