Good piece! Thank you for sharing. Even though I make TV for a living (reality TV) I have always felt very similar. So many insecurities holding me back all the time.
When I was in film school, Rebel Without a Crew was one of our text books and I always... ALWAYS admired the filmmakers that called bullshit on the system and made their films no matter what. That's what it takes sometimes. Even if it comes out as a steaming pile of shit, the point of art... is to make art. If you wanna be an artist, you gotta make art, no matter what people think.
That's the hardest hurdle of all. The paralyzing fear of your friends, family and peers watching your work and cringing.
I've finally started to get back on my filmmaking horse after somewhat of a hiatus. I want to grow my YouTube channel so that eventually I can make whatever I want with an audience that appreciates what I do.
Now it's just time to do more of it.
Best of luck on your films. My only pieces of advice are to take constructive criticism without being defensive, stay focused and don't do it alone. Build a team around you. That's been my greatest weakness as a filmmaker. Team building. It's much easier if you have a circle of people you trust to help you build your work.
Awesome comment!
As I was in University, I didn't have textbooks like this. I didn't learn to break the rules. I hardly learnt any filmmaking. But, I definitely analyzed hundreds or thousands of movies and learned a lot (of other things). The real learning gets done though when you start doing it. Something I don't need to tell you.
you get it!
Fear is the biggest problem indeed but - if like me - you feel you need to create or you will wither - there's little choice. Although, the longer you wait, the harder it usually gets.
I wish you the best of luck with your upcoming steps and hope you enjoy every single one of them as much as you can. If I can help you out in any way, you know where to find me.
Talking about the whole team thing, I will definitely write about that in my upcoming film posts. It's tough man. Believe me, I've tried, again and again. And I will keep on trying. Who knows, perhaps I will find these people via Steemit?
For now, I will keep sharing my story and - if I finally settle down in Portugal - there's no doubt that I will get back to filmmaking/ creating art.
Thanks a lot for your kind words and all the best,
Vincent