As we interspersed in our DMs, I'm not gonna bring up what we brought up in our DMs; so let's find the smile underneath the skin (I need not explain the literalness of this remark). Anyways, takes a breathe if @amirani was existential spirituality, @felt.buzz existential nightmares, @wakeupkitty on perverted faith and @agmoore on reconciliation, @sarez on culture shock, then yers are on doubting myths. (Or to be egregious, when myths betray people and actually do the opposite.) While we do have a literal post of Mr. Renshi Ren coming back to find his post occupied by his rival and relegated to the dirt of the Earth, the ending obscenity is what secures what has happened.
That being the essence of purposelessness which cannot relish in thinking of one's economic standings and must falter back to the myth. Sincerely do we see Mr. Renshi Ren thinking but only anxious at the end; to some this being the "oh shit moment" and to others the realization that he truly knew nothing. Both ways, we still see the doubt of the myth; shattered by a very bland reality that he cannot live in before feeling even more displaced and terrorized by something he exists clearly on without any serious threats out for him now. For the bland reality is, when sincerely looked at, a horrifyingly depressing World if one's biases are pushed aside: work, do, shit, walk and sleep.
However, as a dysfunction of his negated ruling class status, he finds a lesser pain in doubting the myth than facing the pain that he can no longer be a member of the ruling class. Through this conveniency, though he may have noticed he screwed up, he still blames himself and the myth for bringing him to dishonor. When in fact, no one is to blame as his absence caused such replacement and the evidence is there to go beyond the simplicity of blame. However, he cannot see the very real economic forces that the village is strung by; only the play-offs of such in the cultural and ideological constellation of which now he doubts the myth.
For in doubting the myth does it not only act as doubting the tales he grew up believing and also a dysfunction to avoid thinking on economic reality, it gives him the edge to finally see how he isn't the center of the World however much he retreats away afterwards. Thus, this obscenity of the retreat is how we can even know he felt the pain of human centrality being displaced when realizing that no human is special. That indeed, how one's perceptions can change at the whims of time and the economy. The more distant the relevant memories are, the less they matter in the formation of newer relevant memories. Egregiously, we have a case study (exemplum to be proper) of class consciousness being shattered and realizing the futility of one's position; all based on the economic concerns and actions of the time of which he failed to live up.
This is a very profound interpretation, which I appreciate very much, even if it is not the only one possible. The discovery of not being indispensable could also be, after the moment of initial loss, the premise for a true spiritual liberation.
{Let's still remember that the primary aspect is a fable on misinterpreting advice, of which allows this secondary aspect to thrive. Anyways, me-n-mój Ukochany got some poems up~}
It's amazing how you saw so much I hadn't meant to put in there, I appreciate your analysis and final take away from this. It is very insightful to be so sincerely misunderstood, and gives me a lot i can learn from going forwards <3 and it is of course a true thing, that if you let bullies drive you away from things, you have only handed them what they wanted, although that is a way is liberating, instead of the things you love being a shackle, the chains yanked by tormentors, one is freed to make their own way, and be their own selves. By having the world known taken away, the bully may gain that world for selves, but it was only ever a small view. And as you say, doubting the myth which had defined his life, and displacing the pain of torment with the lesser pain of a new start, a person can be liberated and find a whole new life in the wider world.