Really captures the feelings, and made me have flashbacks to my time on a rescue squad in college, and the late nights in hospital emergency rooms when we brought in victims. That last animated drawing you chose was a tough period on the end of the poem too.
I hoped to give you all a look into my heart and my mind. To see the love I have for what I do and the grief that can sometimes accompany it. I know to lose is not to have lost ....that love remains. Its just hard to ease the hearts and minds of those left behind, to walk away while the family of the lost begs you to do more but there is nothing else you can do. I find strength to support them in their grief, then allow myself to feel in my own privacy.
And you did a great job of all of that in the post. I felt it all.