sister....i've been pondering your message for days..and i'm just so humbled. i FEEL you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am the one who should intern around you sis. lol....you're so damn humble. i SEE YOU!!!! i feel you on not being able to go on your own. it's a practice...and no way as way kinda thing for me. i have rocked as many as 4 enemas a day...during certain times of toxicity i could feel...and as little as once a week. my usual practice with them is about 5 days a week with a few days off. even with work schedules..i allow myself a few hours of detox time. waking up a few hours ahead...of needing to leave anywhere..and giving myself...that time to detox, stretch...and breathe. at the gerson clinic...they rock the enemas many many times a day...and then follow with green juice...but i don't do that anymore. just during extreme toxicity times in my life. i've been doing them now ...for over ten years. have you studied dr. nick gonzales's work? he pioneered the use of coffee enemas clinically..and his papers and research are just incredible! kelly brogan covered studied with him...and then wrote her book "a mind of your own" which is also really good IMO. she covers his work with coffee enemas. https://www.amazon.com/Mind-Your-Own-Depression-Reclaim/dp/0062405578/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1540999175&sr=8-1&keywords=kelly+brogan
her interview with joe rogan is also really good imo. yah...ya know..."one persons poison is another persons panacea eh? lol....so i just add my testimony to those that this works for. if it's hard to implant the coffee at first .....i recommend a quick water flush...then implant and hold for 15 mins. it takes some ...a while to work up to 15 mins...but eventually you can. i hope this helps a little sis. hit me up anytime. to anyone reading this too. may we all be blessed...and be in joy..as children today. our birthright :) i love you! i bow to YOU..in respect honor and deep aloha! family!