I really miss the old me, being sociable, happy, motivated.
These past 2 months have turned my world upside down. I feel so very alone and depressed constantly, only I can fix this and I honestly feel unable at this point in time. There are so many things that I need to do going back to work being one of them. Being able to spend time with my children without showing them how I feel about things being another.
There is no quick or easy solution to what I feel and right now I think spending so much time alone and not being to rest properly is only making my life worse.
I feel trapped in a very unhappy spiral of shit.
I need to make some very important decisions in the coming days and I really don't know where to start with them, Im not looking for people to sorry for me or trying to victimize myself I just need to express my feeling right now in the hopes that I can realize things about myself which can help me to get on the right path and stop wanting to fix what obviously can't be.
Having said this and I know many of you have been through terrible times, life is rough on all of us at times. But hitting rock bottom like this is just something that I never imagined could drain the desire to live in such proportions.
Thanks for reading
Lorenzo
Hang in there...Lorenzo try being around positive people. The children need you to be positive and strong... I have never judged anyone for letting their feelings out and u am proud of you for expressing yourself!
Whatever you do DO NOT seek "professional" help! All they will do is put you on pills that won't help anything. Depression is situational, not a medical problem. You have it right, only you can fix this... So the game is half won already.
I don't know what your religious beliefs are, but talking to my priest always makes me feel better. God will only help if you want Him to. I think you'll be Ok...You already took the first step. Remember, when you're stuck in a spiral of shit...it's time to start swimming. Your kids don't expect you to be perfect, they just expect you to be there. Hug them, tell them you love them. Sometimes you have to fake it till you make it!
Goodness, as I was reading that it seemed as if the words were coming from my mouth in stead of yours.
I might not know your circumstances, but those are feelings that I know all to well :(
hang in there and if you ever need to chat, my door is open!
ONE LOVE!
Be patiened. Normally after a alcohol, weed and nicotine break you need minimum 3 months to get back on normal track. Time will heal your wounds ;-)
If your are looking for a faster way. Google Ibogaine. That will be a hard 3 days ride but afterwards you feel complete renewed ;-) Even a little bit like a god. Here is the link http://www.ibogaworld.com/. The lady who sells it is Michelle and he is very helpful and will give you an exact plan for your problems.
My problem is not susbstance abuse or addiction. I feel profoundly depressed because I still care very deeply for my wife and I seem to have developed an emotional dependence that seems hard to break. Thanks for the tip though @lichtclick
Ja Liebeskummer kann Iboga nicht heilen :-) Da hilft nur Zeit und neue nette Menschen.
meep
The conundrum of decision making for us all is not knowing the end result in advance.
Just remember "it could be worse" no matter where life takes you.
Keep your most important goals in mind always. Let them guide you.
Really apreciate all your comments, I just feel worn down from all this bullshit. Thanks for taking the time to reply every bit of advice helps out more than you would believe.
@mallorcaman I didn't want to reply .. it sounds so sad
but we all have such moments and I feel sorry for you but at the same time only you could actually heal how you feel as @samstonehill wrote two days ago -
and perhaps .. you were focusing on the wrong things?
I hope you won't mind if I send you this post...
anyway .. this too shall pass
cheer up!
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