Im not sure. My tribulations definitely made me stronger in a sense. I learned that i can endure a lot more then i ever thought possible. Its like..oh my parent is mortally ill...and? Life is like..so? And? And im like well if i managed to get through this, then there is no point of getging aggitated or scared or stressed for the small insignificant things that i used to. When you reach to about level 30 in the game called life, it has usually thrown so much shit at you, so you are abld to unfuck yourself when life fucks you. But i enjoyd the post.
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It can yes. But I found out that sometimes is the combination of things that chisels away your "passion" . Like I mention at the end, indifference might even be perceived as toughness.
Not my meaning to be "difficult" :D But I have become a lot less indifferent as I have grown older. After getting a wife, a kid, and something useful to do with my life, everything means a lot more to me than when I was younger - despite the world constantly fucking me. However, when I was younger AND indifferent, the world couldn't fuck me - cause I was exactly that - indifferent. I had nothing going for me, I had nothing other than playing computer games and lift weights (yeah, those were my passions in my early 20s) that I cared for. So nothing could touch me. Now that I'm exposed to more..I have more money and investments - something could go wrong in the markets, I have a family - something could happen to them (or me) etc etc , so I have a lot more to lose. But despite having a lot more to lose now, I'm a lot tougher mentally. I RISK MORE, and live more, yet I tackle more things with ease.
But..I agree to an extent. I was bullied in school and I didn't have a great family life growing up. Those things definitely didn't make me stronger. It made me weaker than those who didn't experience that. But once I decided that what happened in the past should not define who I could become, I grew past most of my peers (in my opinion :) ) I'm not sure if that passion would have been lit if everything was just a stroll in the park for me. Maybe it would be an easier and more carefree life, I don't know. But I don't think an easy and carefree life is a good life. I have also suffered from panic attacks and a lot of anxiety - and by changing my mindset and looking at it as a blessing, a chance to really build my self up from scratch - just being able to reset my self , putting it all behind was really a blessing. I don't think I'd ever make it to this point, living this life if it wasn't for my panic attacks and anxiety. Sorry bout the rant! :D
Indeed, exposure can really make us feel vulnerable but also heal us. I like how you first paragraph completes and answers to the first.