Awe @farm-mom, now you've got me bawling. Arthur turned 73 in hospital, and we were heading for our 49th anniversary. I really hope all my stories of dealing with grief have not made you feel this way!
But you are so right - losing someone who has been by your side for so many years, really is the worst! However, losing a child is unthinkable. My Mom lost my Dad and my one brother, three months apart. How she survived that, I don't know, but she did, and she started enjoying life again.
I think we get to a stage where we realize one or the other will go first, and that's probably what you're experiencing now. It won't be easy, that's a certainty, but one somehow finds the strength to face each day. I used to tell Arthur that I didn't want it to ever end. He used to tell me I must remember he was a diabetic from the age of 8, so likely would go first, and when that day comes, I must find myself another man😉
I was not impressed and would say that I never ever wanted anyone else.
His response always was - 'am I that bad a man then?'
Of course, I always said - 'no, it's because you're such a good man, I was not interested in having another old man at my side, plus how would I ever be able to mold an old man?'
No, thank you, not for me😉
The one thing I comfort myself with is that at least I'm sparing Arthur the pain of losing me. And, I know we will meet again one day.
I fully understand your fears, but try to live in the moment, do not dwell on what is still to come.
Enjoy each moment of your life together.
Hey Lizzie, you are sooo right, I have got to live more in the moment. Great advise.
I had to laugh at you saying you didn't want another old man, how could you mold him?
49 years you say, us too, 49 in August. Oh, by the way happy birthday, you are looking good girl.
Wishing you a wonderful and peaceful year.
Thank you for the kind wishes, my friend, life is slowly getting back to a new kind of normal.
Living in the moment and not wasting precious time, really is the only way.
Trying to tackle all of life's problems at once, is a recipe for disaster.
We cannot know what the future holds, but I believe God brings angels to carry us until we find that inner strength when faced with difficult or tragic circumstances.
Take care of yourself dear friend 🧡