I think it is human to find ourselves back in the stuck spot, but the proof of the growth is finding a way through it and out, like you do.
Your deep-fried mariposas and sugarfat cold yummy ice cream with a straw look muy deliciosas and I can only imagine how great it was to eat them after that long ride.
It is not easy to unlearn, to shed so much accumulated over the years. Before I was a bit overwhelmed by falling back into situations that only cause stagnation, today I realise that I'm getting there and I quickly move on... getting away from everything that is toxic or doesn't contribute is very good. There is no need to fear, what you truly need will come.
After the ice cream the maripositas left 13 km to go back home. It was an energy recharge.
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The unlearning does get easier, though, I've discovered, as the intuition steers me away from toxicity I might otherwise have walked into willingly.
Maybe I need a recharge. Tonight I could eat everything.