Necessity, being a homesteader I totally get, guilt, upbringing, pressure - those are the ones I am 'questioning'. Why do we feel guilt or pressure or were brought up this way? Don't get me wrong productivity in itself is a good thing IMO but - all the time?
I imagine homesteading to be both tough and rewarding in different ways. And vacation would be an absolute luxury to have once in a while. I do hope you'll be able to have a real, as opposed to 'sleep' :), vacation one day.
For me, it is now time to go home, leave my happy place the ocean & beach and go back to work on Monday. It wasn't a perfect vacation but I got to go to and spend time at my happy place. A time that I'll remember when stress hits again.
I hope things on the homestead are going well for you!!