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Oh gosh, I must be on the right track then. I do think so. I mean it's different coz you were his Mum and carer, and on some level I am used to or was used to being away from Dad, and parents are meant to died before their kids. I just feel he's just down the road aways, and my mind just says: you'll see him soon enough, and though my faith or lack of says that is untrue, I try not to think or dwell on it. Just hold the joy and then shift gears to something else.

I heard the CRAZIEST story today, and my first thought was.. damn, Dad would love this story.

Yeah. I do that too. Niko would have loved this restaurant, or that view, or this music. I think I connect directly with him at those moments, he is still here, and joyfully, no longer sick.